Tuesday, December 7, 2004
One of those days...
It's been one FUSSY day with Jon Kent. He has been pretty fussy for a few days now. But today has topped them all!!! I would feed him and he would go to sleep, so I would try and put him down...well he would wake up and cry and cry and cry. He was turning his face purple from crying so hard. I would try and talk to him but he would just cry harder, then I would try and snuggle with him but he would cry harder. I would change his diaper and for a brief, brief moment he would calm down. But as soon as I would pick him up from his changing table he would start crying again. So, I would feed him again...he would fall asleep and I would once again try and put him down....and then the cycle would start all over again...*sigh* It's very frustrating and heartbreaking all at the same time. I would try and settle him down but nothing I did would work so I felt rather useless and like a bad mother that I couldn't soothe my own son...another *sigh* He is now in his bouncy seat, but it only worked for a short time as he is down fussing again. Thankfully I had Kent home all day to hand him off to when I couldn't handle it anymore. The only time I actually felt like a good mother was this morning, Kent and I decided to take a nap while Jon Kent was sleeping...as soon as we laid down Jon Kent started crying so I went and got him and we both laid down on the couch. He fell asleep in my arms and stayed that way for almost 2 hours. It was really rewarding. Anywho...enough with my venting and what not. I did get some cleaning done. Vacuuming, dusting, sweeping, mopping, etc. Nothing huge or by any means an *Emily cleaning* but it was enough to make me feel better! That for the most part has been my day. Kent is going to go to Blockbuster in a minute or two and grab some movies for us to watch tonight. I'm actually looking forward to it. Anyway, that is all for now. I'll talk with yall later!!!!
I remember when my youngest was a baby and she was soooooo fussy. I can relate to feeling like a failure but I finally started believing my mom when she said she just needs you to love her through it. I'm glad to find fellow Bama girl in j-land!
ReplyDeleteJennifer