The day after

Well, it's the first day after surgery and for the most part I am fine.  I have been more quiet with this miscarrage than the last one.  I guess the reason mostly is because I am talking to myself more this time.  The last time I wanted to talk with everyone else and see what they were thinking and what they thought about the whole situation.  This time, I am mostly asking myself all the questions and just talking with myself.  Which may help me get through this a little bit easier...if that is possible.  With this miscarriage I'm not so eager to have a conversation with people about it.  In fact, telling people this time has been the hardest part.  I just really don't want to talk about it.  I guess mostly because I talk to myself about it all day.  I looked up a website tonight at discoveryhealth and typed in blighted ovum.  It had some really good information on it.  If you are curious about what a blighted ovum is...just visit that site.  Well, I set an appointment for De. 22 at 8:15 in the morning to have my check-up after the D&C.  That is when we will start scheduling all the appointments for all the testing that will be done in January.  Yall please keep me in yours prayers.  Cause even now, I don't know how all this is going to play out.  I am hoping for the best, but trying not to get my hopes up like that last couple of times.  Well, that is all for now.  I'll talk with yall later!