I'm dying

I swear if I didn't know better, I would think I was dying.  This pain has just gotten worse.  And my only relief is to sit down, hunch over to my left side and pray.  I am telling you.. this pain is flat out unrelenting.  Even the pain medicine isn't touching it.  I don't know what to do.  I feel so out of control and so helpless.  I feel like the worse mother in the world because I can't even play with the kids.  It took me forever to get from the living room to the bathroom to help Jon Kent wipe his butt (graphic.. whatever).  He kept saying, "Mommmmmaaaaaa!!!  IIIIII pooooopppppiiieeeed!"  I would tell him I was coming but by the time I got half way there he was saying it all over again.  THEN earlier this morning he wanted to poopie on the "big potty" because the "little potty is Zoey's now" and he had his underwear around his ankles but couldn't get on the seat.  He was doing the I've got to go, it's about to come out dance by the time I got there.  UGH.  And to say I feel all alone is an understatement, but we won't get into those details because it does no good.  My family (in laws included) have been a good help and I appreciate it, but it's not them I need.  So whatever.  Nonetheless, hopefully at 2pm I'll get some answers and hopefully a timeline of when all this will be over and I can get back into the swings of my normal life.