From my creative point of view

 

This is what my house looks like.  Well, kind of.  I made this last spring when I planted all my pretty flowers.  I even added the cats.  One in the window and one going up the steps.  For the most part this is what my house looks like.  It's a cute small house..big enough for Kent and me...and maybe a baby.  Just thought I would share.

Organized!

My day today has been busy.  And it is only 2:15!  I got up and read "A Purpose Driven Life".  I ate some yogurt and watched a little TV.  Then I exercised for about an hour.  It really took a lot of will power to finish that very last 30 minutes of the workout.  Anywho, I reorganized my closet.  It looks so pretty now.  All the shoes are put up, all the clothes are organized by: casual, dressy-casual, and then dressy.  We'll see how long that lasts.  I give it about a week.  I'm anxious to see if Kent even notices.  I really did need to go through my closet and see what all we had.  I couldn't believe all the jeans Kent had.  He had like 14 or 15 pairs of jeans.  I weeded that down to 8.  And those jeans aren't counting the jeans he has to "play" in.  I had 6 pairs of jeans which I was proud to have that.  I ended up having two trash bags full of stuff that we just out grew or had holes in them.  I still am going to go through the dressers and weed out some clothes in those.  I love doing this kind of stuff.  It makes me feel like I am doing something useful.  Oh well.  Tonight Kent and I are going to the mall.  I have no idea what we are going to get there, but I guess we will have to see later!  Well, I'm off to work some more!  I'll talk with yall later!!!!!  BYEEEEEEE!

An apple a day....

So I went to the doctor today.  That is always a joyous trip.  I had to wait over an hour to see him.  Finally he came in.  I've had a rash on the top of my toes for like 9 or 10 months now.  And I went to him back in the summer to see what we could do.  He gave me some cream to put on them but it never worked.  So I went back today and he gave me another kind of cream.  I'm hoping this one works.  That way when summer rolls around and I am wearing my flip-flops my toes will look cute.  I told my doctor that and he just laughed and said..."That will be our goal to have your feet better by sandal season."  He gave me a bunch of free samples so maybe I won't have to fill the prescription he gave me.  The cream is supposed to clear it all up in four weeks!  We'll see!  As for the rest of my day....  I didn't do water aerobics today.  Instead I walked/ran almost two miles.  Which was pretty good.  I was having to dodge "older" people as I ran.  I was surprised at how many people go walking in the morning like that.  After that I came home and cooked lunch for Kent, Kerith (Kent's sister), Seth (Kent's brother), and myself.  We then watched Seth and Kent play PS2.  After my doctor's appointment I went to Wally World, Food World, and Winn-Dixie.  I got everything that we should need for awhile.  Now, I am home.  But not for long.  I'm fixing to go tan and eat pizza over at my parent's.  That's all for today!  I'll talk with yall later!

B-O-R-E-D

I am bored.  No, I take that back...I am beyond bored.  I have done everything possible to keep myself entertained.  I've worked out, I've washed clothes, cleaned the house, surfed the internet, and read all my emails.  Yet, it is 6:02pm and I am bored.  Kent doesn't get off for another 4 hours that is if he doesn't have to work until midnight.  I don't feel like going out or going to Wally World.  That takes too much energy.  Maybe I am just being lazy...which isn't so much a bad thing.  I wouldn't mind being lazy if there was something on TV.  But all the good shows come on at 7:00pm.  Maybe by then I will have gotten some ideas to entertain myself with.  We'll see.  If anyone has any suggestions I am open to hearing them...or is it reading them...?....  In any case...I just don't want to be bored anymore.  Maybe someone will get online that I can talk to.  Oh well.  I'll talk with yall later!  BYEEEEE!

Looking forward to Feb 19th

Well, looks like Kent and I will be on the road to trying to conceive soon.  Three weeks from today I will be have a ton of blood taken and several tests ran.  I'm just happy that finally we can start running tests to see what is going on in this body of mine.  Hopefully, the doctor will have some answers and we can fix whatever is wrong.  But we still have atleast 5 more weeks before we can even think about trying to conceive.  I also started monitoring my cycles.  I have the Clearblue Easy Fertility Monitor.  We bought it like 3 months ago and finally we will be able to put it to some use.  Anyway, I am so excited.  And relieved.  I prayed last night for God to just get things going in my body again.  He was so good to answer that prayer for me.  The stress was really starting to get to me!  Anywho, that is all the updates for now!  Maybe I'll updated later on tonight!  Bye all!

Nothing to wear

So my husband is cooking me dinner on Valentine's Day.  He is giving me the whole day to pamper myself and to get ready for the night.  It's going to be so romantic.  But here is the problem...what do I wear.  I know that sounds petty...but hear me out.  Do you dress up only to go home and eat?  It's not like you are going out on the town.  So what do you wear???  I figured a cute sweater would be good.  And I think I have found it...but it's somewhat expensive.  I showed it to Kent and he was like "it's that much for a sweater"???  So, I took that as a "no"...  So what do I wear then?  I'm about ready to throw my hands in the air and just give up and wear a jogging set home.  I guess I'll just roam through my closet until I find something I like.  I have a lot of pretty things, but I just wanted this outfit to be special.  Last year when we went out on Valentine's Day we went to this really nice place and stayed over night there.  But this year we are just staying at home and relaxing here.  We have had a rough time here lately and we just want to stay home and enjoy each other.  Oh well...maybe by V-day I can come up with something!  Later gator!

Band Nerd

When I was in high school I played in band all four of my years there.  The first two years I was there I played trumpet and marched with the band.  The last two years I was in the band I was on the color guard squad.  My senior year I was captian of the squad.  Looking back on those years I always thought I was somewhat cool.  I had plenty of friends and I tried to stay up to date on all the fashions.  The other day in my mind I was thinking about those days and remembering all the fun we had and all the "drama" that happened during that 90 minutes of band.  And all I can see are a bunch of band nerds.  Even the most popular of people in the band...I still see as band nerds.  We all thought we knew it all.  We thought we had things figured out.  But to look back and realize what I know now compared to what I knew then...I was clueless.  I had no idea what real life was like.  I had no idea what truly was ahead of me.  At that point in my life I was "worry free".  Being a band nerd was a cake walk compared to life now.  The hardest thing then was asking my dad for money and trying to remember all the notes and routines.  Now...between bills and D&Cs life is totally different.  Somedays I dream of being in high school again...just like when I was in high school I dreamed of being on my own.  It's funny how things change in such a short time frame.  When I have kids...I'll encourage them to enjoy being that band nerd while they can...cause once they get into the real world they'll wish they enjoyed riding on moma and daddy's coat tails a little more.

Is it May yet?

I turn 21 in May...woohooooo!  Actually, it's really not all that thrilling to me.  I mean I don't drink so what's the point?  Even if I did drink, I could have gotten my husband to buy for me (he doesn't drink either).  I mainly am excited about it because I love birthdays.  I might as well enjoy them now...cause from what I hear...once you hit 30 or 40....you don't look forward to them anymore.  I was thinking the other day what I wanted for my birthday this year.  For all those who are close to me...this is where you take notes:  I wouldn't mind a new car.  Which we are going to start looking for one in May...so....  Money.  That is always a good gift.  A CD player for the Metro.  Listening to the radio all day can get old after awhile.  I wouldn't mind a weekend at a spa.  That would be relaxing.  Mabe by May I will be pregnant...that would be an awesome gift...or better yet...maybe in May I could be hearing a heartbeat.  Now that would be the best present ever.  Oh well...I've still got time to think of other things...only 3 months and 17 shopping days left!

Getting married too young?

During my second term at college I was in a class with a late 20's early 30's divorced woman.  Apparently her marriage wasn't a joyous union and thus ended in divorce which made her very bitter.  When she found out I was 18 and engaged you would have thought I killed someone.  The look of bitterness just filled her face.  She proceeded to tell me how crazy I was to throw my life away for "some random guy".  Random guy?  Let's see...I've known Kent since I was about 7.  We grew up in church together and first were friends and then we became girlfriend, boyfriend.  And then after almost 4 years of that we were engaged.  Yet he is just some random guy.  She then told me that getting married at 18 was way too young and I should get my education first and live a little.  What's the point?  When you know that this is the person you want to marry...what's the point in waiting?  By this point she was mad at me for whatever reason and told me that I would never finish my course of study after getting married.  That as soon as I said I do I would come back to campus and drop out.  This discussion went on for weeks...it ended only because we went on Spring Break...which is when I got married.  I came back to class that first day...placed my books on my desk and told her that I was back from my honeymoon all refreshed and ready to learn.  She told me it wouldn't last through the first year.  After that term I never saw this lady again.  But if she happens to be reading this...I did finish school with a degree and ahem...we will be married TWO years this March.

My Monday

My Monday went fairly well.  I got up at 7ish after about 5 and half hours of sleep.  Surprisingly I had a ton of energy.  I did 2 loads of clothes, my crunches, water aerobics, and cleaned the house.  I did everything on my to do list except items 6 and 7.  I guess tanning can wait until tomorrow and cooking supper can too.  We just ended up getting something from Subway.  About 2:30pm my body finally gave up and I crashed into my bed and took about a 30-45 minute nap.  It was soooo refreshing.  Kent came home and we ate and then headed to see his brother play basketball.  They ended up losing again but only by 7 points.  They came back from like 17 points.  It was a pretty good game.  After the game we went to see my daddy.  He was doing some chores so we sat and talked with him a bit.  Our last stop of the day was Wally World and Food World.  Now we are home in our nice warm house.  It's COLD outside.  Anywho, that was my day.  I'll talk with yall later!

Diets

Today I went to water aerobics and as usual I was extremely tired by the end of it.  After the class is over I usually swim a few laps and wait for all the other women to shower and get dressed.  During one of my rests between laps I was in a group of women all talking about dieting.  Have you ever noticed that everyone seems to think they hold the secret to the perfect diet?  Today I heard so many different diet ideas.  One diet went something like this:  A glass of milk for breakfast with a vitamin that is for weight loss and then a slimfast bar for lunch and something healthy for supper.  Another one was:  Cutting all breads and sugars out of meals and eating smaller portions.  Then you have the all famous Atkins diet.  A few people were on the slimfast plan.  And most of the people in the group were just trying to watch what they eat and exercise.  I think most of these diets are good ones.  I think it starts getting sad when you starve yourself of food.  And what people don't understand is when you starve yourself of food your body isn't getting the minerals and nutrients it needs.  And in fact starving yourself can lower your metbolism which is what burns fat in the first place.  What is my diet you ask?  It's not really a diet.  I just trying to eat right and exercise first thing in the morning.  That way my metabolism is up and running at a faster pace.  I love to eat yogurt for breakfast and sometimes a glass of milk.  For lunch I try to keep it light.  A low fat turkey sandwhich with some water.  For supper I just cook what I want to eat that night.  Nothing too heavy but enough to where I'm not wanting to snack the rest of the night.  That's another thing, snacking will always get the best of you.  It's OK to snack on fruits and veggies between meals but after supper most people bring out the chips and things.  On the weekends I try to just reward myself by taking those two days off.  Not over doing it, but not focusing so much on sticking to a plan.  Cause if you do that for too long you will get burned out.  And when you get burned out...you give up and you gain weight.  Well, that is all for now.  I still have many things to do on my Monday "To Do List".  Later gator! 

My Monday "To do list"

My Monday "To Do List"

1.  Read another day in "The Purpose Driven Life"

2.  Do crunches

3.  Go to water aerobics

4.  Wash clothes

5.  Clean house

6.  Tan

7.  Cook supper

OK.  So we'll see what all actually gets done...I say 5 out of 7.  We'll see tomorrow!

Rain rain go away

Well, nothing new really going on here.  Just the rain.  It has been raining pretty steadly for about 24 hours now.  I can't complain too much because we did need the rain.  Plus, it so relaxing to lay in bed and listen to the rain fall on the roof.  Ahhh, it makes me want to go back to sleep.  Tomorrow it is supposed to clear up and according to AOL's weather it's supposed to be in the low 70's.  Whew, it's winter and yet it's 70 something degrees.  But by Friday the temp is supposed to drop to the 30's.  And maybe snow...yippie!  I haven't seen snow in a long time!  I'm kinda looking forward to it.  But knowing how things go it will be just another cold rain storm.  Oh well.

Last night I made a new discovery.  Victoria'sSecret.com  I knew they had a site but I didn't realize they sold so many other things.  I got on there and was looking at all the swimsuits they have.  They really have some nice ones.  And the price isn't too bad either.  Once summer gets a little closer I'll have to go and look for a bathing suit on there.  I have one already picked out.  It is so cute.  We'll just have to see if I can fit into it by then or will I have to be looking for preggo bathing suits.  Either way I'll be happy!  Well, that is all for now!  Maybe I'll have something interesting to talk about later!  BYE!

Modest Sunbathers

I got this in an email and just had to share it with yall!  ENJOY!

Why are people so negative?

Lately I have been thinking a lot about why people are so negative.  I mean I know this one person that all they do is complain.  All they seem to want to do is stir up trouble and draw attention to themselves by doing so.  All I can really do is feel sorry for them.  Cause I know if I say anything to them then I will be the next on their hit list of people to complain about or start stuff with.  And believe me I am in no mood for crap like that.  It just makes me think sometimes, do these people have nothing better to do?  I mean really...can they not find something to be happy about or something to praise about?  I guess not.

Today was a blah kind of day.  I woke up thinking I would clean the house up a bit, but that never seemed to happen.  I did get the laundry done, so that was good.  Maybe I'll do the cleaning Monday.  I did go and tan and visit with my dad.  He was trying to organize somethings in the utility room.  I then came home just in time to meet my husband at the door.  I cooked some supper and then we watched a little TV.  Kent's dad dropped by real quick to pick up some DVDs to watch.  And then Kent and I played Trivial Pursuit the 20th Anniversary Edition.  We ended up quitting about half way through the game cause we knew almost zero of the questions.  We thought it would be kind of easy since we have lived through those years.  But we were so wrong.  Oh well.  Kent is now in the living room watching TV and eating chips and I am in here typing to yall.  For the most part that was my day!  I hope yall have a great weekend and I'll talk with yall later!

It's scary sometimes

I stay at home while my husband works in a federal prison.  He is a correctional officer there.  Right now he is still labeled a rookie until he gets his first year in.  He only has 4 more months.  His schedule has been to say the least wacky.  He works a month on first shift, a month on second shift, and a month on third shift.  But recently his schedule has changed like every week.  It gets confusing sometimes.  My days are totally messed up and most of the time I don't even know what time it is.  I try my best to stay on his time table but sometimes it's hard.  The hardest thing about Kent working in a prison is you never really know what is going on.  Kent is only allowed to tell me very undetailed things and the rest I really don't want to know about.  Just because I know if I did I wouldn't sleep at night.  If Kent is ever late from coming home and he didn't tell me he had other plans I begin to worry and get scared.  I start thinking...was there a riot?  Did he get hurt?  Did he have to separate a fight and got caught in the middle of it?  For the most part I feel fine with him working there.  Kent's dad works there and has worked there for almost 20 years.  It just hits me sometimes that he is working around murderers, theives, robbers, and just criminals in general.  Half of those people are serving life sentences...so what do they have to lose?  I know Kent is in God's hand and amazingly I always find great peace in knowing that!

Some of my favorite things

I'm always thinking about what I enjoy most about my life...what are my favorite things...so I decided to write some down...here goes...

1. I love the way clothes smell when they just come out of the dryer.

2. I love the way my husband tells me he loves me and I know it really came from deep down in his heart.

3. I love the way children are so innocent...all they see is good.

4. I love the way something that you have been trying to figure out just comes to you one day while grocery shopping.

5. I love the way tulips smell.

6. I love little surprises...like little notes left on a mirror.

7. I love waking up near an ocean and hearing the waves breaking on the shore.

8. I love knowing that my parents love me and that I never have to question if they will be there for me even when I make a mistake.

9. I love shopping for a new outfit and then realizing I have enough for a new purse and shoes.

10. I love knowing that I'm not promised tomorrow, but I am promised eternity in heaven because I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior.

Well, I have many more favorites but here is just a few to get me started!  Later all!

The NAKED truth

Today was a really good day.  It started off with me getting up bright and early at 7:15am (that is bright and early for me).  I ate some yogurt and read another day in my "A Purpose Driven Life" book.  I watched a little TV and got dressed and ready to go to water aerobics.  It was a good workout.  Kent's granny was there and we talked the whole time about different issues and things so it made the time go by so much faster.  After the workout was done I went into the ladies locker room and yes saw some naked "older" ladies.  I normally wouldn't harp on this forever but today was just a bomb shell shocker.  I literally had like a foot of room to move around without touching or bumping in to somebody.  A first it was kind of funny and for the most part it still is...but really...come on people... One lady was in there with Kent's granny who is VERY shy and she just threw open the curtain and was like can I join you.  I thought Granny was going to die.  The other lady was like we all have the same thing....just some are bigger than others...I was like oh my goodness!  Anywho, enough with that.  After changing I ended up talking with Kent's moma for like an hour and a half about just different things.  Then I pretty much just came home and tried to relax.  I am just so tired from this whole week.  I  have worked out for 5 days straight.  It's time for me to rest.  Once Kent gets home we will probably eat and just lay around and do nothing.  Sounds good to me...  Well, that is all for now!!  I'll talk with yall later!

Wal-Mart on Mars?

For an update on my day:  I did finally work out.  I swear it about killed me.  I guess as the week goes on I get more tired and by Thursday and Friday I am just give out.  Kent and I went to see his brother Seth, who is 12, play in a basketball game.  He did pretty well.  We shot a 3 pointer and I think he got a couple of 2 pointers.  They didn't win though but they did lead for most of the game.  After the game we went to Wally World because we needed some candy and things.  At our Wal-Mart that are turning it into a Super Center.  Surprisingly they have built it pretty quickly.  They opened up a new part recently...it is really starting to look huge!  That was mostly my night!  Tomorrow is water aerobics with all the older ladies.  Most of them are so funny and really great to be around.  It only gets ugly once you go in to take a shower... (grins).  I'll leave yall with this site that I got through an email group that I am in.  I hope yall enjoy it.  I made a 53 on it.  Yall let me know what yall make!   http://www.gotjokes.net/tests/how_corrupt.php3   Later gator!

Wow what an honor

Wow, what can I say?  I am truly honored to be chosen as AOL's top 5 picks of the week!  I have been waiting to hear from AOL for months about this...so finally...Thank You AOL.   If you want the full scoop on me please read earlier entries.  I have many pictures of my family and cats and even a few of me...eek.  So please go through my journal and enjoy all the entries.

So here is the run down on me real quick for all of you who are just joining...  I am 20 years old and married to my wondeful husband Kent who is 22.  We were married on March 16, 2002 and yes that would make me 18 at the time and him 20.  No, I wasn't pregnant and no it wasn't a shotgun wedding (I get that all the time).  I have a degree in Accounting and Kent has one in Computer Science.  I stay at home and Kent works in the government.  We have two cats Sammie and Kacie and we have two babies who have already gone to heaven.  If you want pictures of us and the cats...feel free to go through my journal and look up a few or you can see some in my member profile.  Kent and I are currently in the process of trying to start a family...please join us as we continue this journey.  And please bookmark this journal and come back often!  Well folks that is all for now.  I'll talk with yall later!

Skittles

I'm eating Skittles.  No, they aren't on my diet...but I deserve a treat every now and then.  I've been working out really hard today...so I needed something to reward myself with.  Anywho...

My day today has been pretty good.  I went to water aerobics and believe it or not I show NO naked ladies.  I quickly ran in there and got my clothes and quickly ran into a stall were no one could see me and I could see no one.  After I changed clothes I quickly ran out of there and headed home.  I did have a pretty good work out.  After the aerobics I swam a lap and just played around in the water.  I came home and had some lunch and headed over to my parent's house to tan.  While tanning I got really hot...I was like how long have I been in here...it seemed like forever.  Oh well...

The trying to conceive plans are still in the works.  I have to wait until I get some tests ran with my doctor.  Who knows when that will be.  It's take forever for my body to have a regular cycle.  I guess my body is still recovering from the D&C.  I can't wait until we can try again.  And maybe this time we will hear a little heartbeat.  I sure hope so!

Well, that is all for now.  I'll talk with yall later!

The run down

Today is going to be an easy going day.  The only thing I really have to do is clean the bathroom.  I have been putting it off for a few days now.  I just hate cleaning the shower.  I rather clean the toilet than the shower.  I also need to clean the floors.  I haven't really done that since November.  I cleaned here and there but for the most part they haven't been cleaned clean.  I think I will tan today too.  My MIL (mother-in-law) called this morning around 10ish...I was still asleep so I didn't answer.  It was just too cold to get out of bed.  Anywho, I think I will call her here in a minute or two.  I also need to work out today sometime.  We'll see how that goes.  I am trying my hardest to just stay fit and healthy.  But I have found that I am addicted to twizlers (is that how you spell it?).  Anywho, I really love those things.  I have already ate all of the ones that were in the house.  I guess I'll have to go get some more today or sometime soon!  Once Kent gets off of work I'll cook some supper and we'll plop down on the couch and watched American Idol.  That was too funny last night!  The first few shows are my favorites because they show all those people trying out and half of them can't even sing.  It's too funny.  Well, that is the run down of my day!  I'll talk with yall later!

Just me thinking

I've been thinking...  Anywhere from the next fews day to the first of Feb. is going to be nerve racking.  When I had my D&C my doctor told me that as soon as I have a regular period to come back and have some tests ran on my cycle days 21-23.  They are going to run a ton of tests on me.  I'm actually in a small, tiny way hoping that they find something wrong.  Just so we can say..ok there..there was something wrong now we fixed it and now we  can have a baby.  But at the same time I don't want anything to be wrong cause if there is then that is what caused both of my babies to die.  It's like a Catch22.  But at the same time we could (but I highly doubt it) be pregnant right now.  We have tried to be as careful as possible.  But you just never know.  I just need yall's prayers.  That everything will go exactly the way God has planned it.  And that I won't get in the way of those plans.  I just want everything to go the way God has intended it to go.  I'm just anxious I guess to see what a baby of mine looks like...if it's a boy...will he look like Kent...will he be athletic...will he make good grades...will he have a tender heart.  If it's a girl..will she have blonde curly hair and blue eyes...will she look like me...will she like to play dolls or be a tomboy?  I just so ready to see what becomes of my children.  It's nerve racking to know what kind of mother I will be..but at the same time..I'm ready to find out.  I find myself day dreaming of all the what ifs...what if this were to happen or what if this had happened...  I just hope someday I can look back on all this and tell my baby what all mommy and daddy did just to meet you.....

On a happier note

Valentine's Day will be here soon!  And to my surprise, Kent will be off that day!  Or atleast right now they have him off that day.  But who really knows!  But we are still excited about it for the moment!  Last V-day we had a great time together.  We went on a weekend trip.  It was vey romantic (giggles).  I don't know what plans Kent has for this V-day...I'll leave it up to him to make those plans!  We'll see what he comes up with!  I have set out somethings to make it more Valentiney (is that a word) around here.  Nothing too flashy..just enough to make things look cute.  Kent said it looked good...so I must be doing something right!

Tonight we went over to my parent's house to eat chillie and watch Auburn and Alabama play in basketball.  I think they lost to Alabama.  I'm not sure.  Kent and I left after the first half and went to Wally World.  We needed to pick up a filing cabinet and some other things.  Our computer room is starting to look more organized.  We got a new desk and a new filing cabinet.  I must say it all looks good together!  Hopefully soon my whole house will be organized!  Well, that is all for now!  I'll talk with yall later!

 

 

 

 

My arms are empty

OK.  So honestly, I am seriously sad right now.  Why?  Well, in a few short weeks will be my first ue date.  And I know when that day comes my arms will still be empty.  I thought that the grief I felt would ease over time and it had.  But lately all I can think about is that little baby that I will never see.  I know that it was meant to happen exactly the way that it did..I know I am still young and have plenty of time...I know that atleast now I know I can conceive and I know that everything happens for a reason.  But you know what...I find no comfort in that.  All I know for sure is that I have no baby...not even one growing inside of me.  I try to convince myself that there will be other times...other chances.  And you know what...that very well maybe true...but it still doesn't ease this pain that I have.  I look around me and see that everyone else has seemed to moved on...like they forgot about my little baby...my baby that WAS growing side of me...that was a physical part of me.  I don't know why all of a sudden I have felt this way, but it just seems to get worse as each day goes by.  I just wish that I could fast forward through Feb. 27th.  Or that I could rewind to June and just not get pregnant in the first place.  But I can't.  I know that God has a plan and I know that He knows what is best for me.  But I as a human can't even phathom why this had to happen.  Why me?  Why anyone? I just wish I knew the answers to my questions.  But I know if that were the case then I would be God and I wasn't made to be Him.  Hopefully, in time my heart won't ache so much.  That it will heal itself.  In time... 

Nothing New

Nothing has really happened the last two days.  Kent has been off of work, so we have just been hanging around the house.  I washed clothes and did some house work yesterday.  I was glad to get all of that done.  Not that you could tell I did anything....I have a husband who forgets to put things back where they belong...  ; )

I did my water aerobics today.  I really didn't feel all that great today.  I think my ovaries are acting up.  Hopefully when I go back to the doctor he can give me something for them.  I think I might be getting cysts on them again...which by no means is fun.  Anyway, back to water aerobics, it was OK.  Nothing special happened.  Just saw some old naked ladies again...but hey...what's new? 

Tonight Kent and I are taking my parents out to eat.  I have no idea where we are going.  Hopefully we can make a stop at the mall.  I want to see if they have the shoes I have been looking for.  Hopefully so.  I know Kent wants to go to Lowes.  We are looking at getting a tub for our bathroom.  It only has a shower in it right now.  I miss taking my baths.  Well, that is all for today.  I'll talk with yall later!

Still tired

I'm still tired.  This working out stuff is tiring...LOL  It gives me tons of energy but I'm too tired to use it.  Oh well.  Today I went to water aerobics again.  Today I was really tired and my legs were soooo sore from yesterday.  I enjoy doing it though.  I would recommend it to anyone...no matter what age you are!  

Kent will be home in a little while.  He will then be off of work for 2 days.  It's been 8 days since he has gotten any off days.  Usually he gets 2 days off after working 5 days.  But for whatever reason he had to work 8 days.  I'm just glad he will be off so we can spend some good quality time together.  I love him so much and I miss him not being here with me all day.

My daddy is coming over tonight and him and Kent are going to be putting some extra shelves in some of the closets.  We need the extra storage.  I just hope they don't make too big of a mess.  I don't really feel like cleaning.  But tomorrow is my cleaning day, so I guess it will be OK if they make a little mess.

Kent's daddy's birthday is today.  He is 40 heehee.  I think it is funny.  Last year we put black ballons everywhere for Kent's moma when she turned 40.  But I don't think we'll do that with his dad.  We just don't have the time today.  Oh well.  I'm sure Barry (Kent's dad) got ragged at work so that should be funny to hear about when Kent gets home. 

Well, I guess that is all.  I'll talk with yall later!

Too tired for words

Well everyone, I am TIRED!  Not just tired...but TIRED!  I did some ab workouts this morning.  Then I headed off to water aerobics.  Today I got tired quicker than yesterday.  It's an hour workout, but by the first 15 minutes I was like "is this ever going to end"?  But it did and I ended up swimming about 2 laps after the workout.  Then I headed into the dressing room to change and alas the same thing happened as yesterday.  I was like oh my goodness...do these women not wear clothes??  I quickly changed and headed home.  I got home and ate a turkey sandwhich and watched a little TV.  I then tanned at my parent's.  I'm now home.  I've straightened the house up a bit.  Nothing special.  I have a pork loin in the crock pot roasting....yumm...and I am about to get a shower.  Tonight, Kent and I are going to watch his little sister play her first basketball game of the season.  Then we are coming home and hitting the hay.  Cause...I'm TIRED.  Later!

Splish, splash

Yeah that is right...my mood is HAPPY today!  I'm hopeful yes, but also happy!  Anywho, today I went and did water aerobics.  It was actually fun.  All it is, is a bunch of "older" ladies who just get together and socialize while "pretending" to get a workout.  I mean if you actually do the workout it is really good and really worth it.  But these ladies don't care they just talk, and talk, and cut up!  It is so funny!  One lady was telling us that she is getting a face lift, tummy tuck, and lipo.  And she was serious.  She is getting it all done in Feb.  I was like what??  It was just crazy.  Then when I went to the bathroom to change, I saw a sight I wish I would have never seen!  This "older" lady was butt naked...  I was infront of the heater trying to warm up anad she just comes up to me like nothing was strange about it.  And yall...I'm modest about my body.  I don't go walking around nake infront of strangers.  But this lady...she had no shame!  All I could think was...after having children...it all goes south!  LOL  ; )  I still can't get that image out of my head!  Oh well.  Today I also tanned and washed clothes.  I did a little house cleaning, but nothing special.  I may still walk my mile.  I haven't decided yet.  Well, that is all for now!  I'll talk with yall later!

Bored, Bored, Bored

Tonight while my husband was at work, I looked out the window and show all these people's lights on in their homes.  I imagined that they are all in their homes nice and warm just spending time with each other while they have the weekend off.  I looked up the road and show Kent's parents lights on and just knew that they were all spending family time together.  I looked over to my left and saw Kent's grandparent's porch light on and knew they were out somewhere eating together.  Why am I saying all of this??  Well, for the most part, I miss being normal (as me and Kent call it).  I miss having Kent off on the weekends and I miss going to church on a regular basis with him.  I just miss spending that "weekend time" with him.  I know it's crazy because I do get two days with him just like it was the weekend...instead it's sometime during the week.  But I don't know.  I just miss it sometimes.  I see all these people going out and about on the weekends together and sometimes I miss it.  OK enough with me babbling. 

I walked another mile today and worked out a bit.  I have been meaning to weigh myself but I haven't gotten to that part yet.  My moma and daddy came over tonight for awhile and visited.  But for the most part I have just been on my own.  I have watched TV and played on the computer mostly.  That's been my day.  Tomorrow will be church and Granny's.  I'll talk with yall later!

Just because

OK...first of all...yes I know it's like one in the morning...but that is the way we sleep right now.  We got to bed late and wake up late...in my book...it's all good!

OK.  Now, I just wanted to let all of yall know that I am married to the most wonderful man in the world.  Yes, that is right...I, Emily Elizabeth P____ O____ (I don't want any crazies knowing my name =)  ) am married to the greatest man in the world.  Do we have our little fights...yes...do we disagree sometime...oh yeah....but yet at the end of the day I am so blessed to have him beside me.  He gives to me more than I could ever ask for.  He helps me around the house without me even asking.  He cooks for me sometimes.  He washed dishes for me.  And most importantly...he loves.  I'm looking forward to growing old with him.  Just thought I would let yall know how much I love my husband!!!!  BYE!!!!

My thoughts

As you know I have been reading a book called "The Purpose Driven Life" by Rick Warren.  So far it has been an awesome book.  The main theme of the book is trying to find your purpose for you life.  Cause God has given us all purposes to be on this earth.  So anywho, I was reading today and I came across this one section where it was telling that we all go through tests in our lives.  That God tests us everyday.  He doesn't tempt us but He does test us.  So, I started thinking that the miscarriages that I have gone through are tests that God has given me.  He wants to see if I will lean on Him in my time of sadness.  In the book it was saying that, "You will be tested by major changes, delayed promises, impossible problems, unanswered prayers, undeserved cristicism, and even senseless tragedies."  These are all things that everyone has experienced.  You may be thinking..well this God of yours doesn't seem to be a loving God.  But oh how wrong you are.  Through these tests I grow, I learn, I become a stronger person.  With every test I pass I am rewarded with great riches in heaven.  And God also promises me something that only He can give.  "God is able to do far more than we could ever dare to dream of, infinitely beyond our highest prayers, desires, thoughts, or hopes."  Going through a miscarriage is something I would never wish on another person.  But since I did have to go through two myself I  know that the dream I had with both of those babies will be far surpassed by what God has instore for me when I do finally get a baby here on earth.  I will forever love and miss my babies who have already gone to heaven, but I'm excited to see what God has instore for me.  With every test passed comes great rewards.  Let's all pray we pass the test!

My Thursday

My Thursday has been pretty good.  I got up this morning and had my usual yogurt.  I then continued my reading in my book.  Kent and I just sat around and watched TV and I watched Kent play the playstation.  We then had lunch and watched some more TV.  I didn't do my walking today.  Frankly, it was just too cold.  Plus, I needed to let my legs rest.  They were hurting so much.  I still may do a little exercising later...nothing major.  Anywho, Kent left for work and I started washing clothes.  I hopped in the shower and then headed to the grocery store.  I picked up a few things and came home.  I then stuggled with my remote and watched Friends.  It was so good.  I then watched that show...umm what is it called....it has Donald Trump in it.  Anywho, it was pretty good.  I'll have to keep my eye on it for awhile.  It may turn out to be a good show.  For the most part that has been my day.  Nothing special.  Maybe my Friday will be more exciting.  We'll see!!!  I'll talk with yall later!

Yeah...I'm bored

Yeah...that's right...I'm bored.  Usually I can keep myself busy, but for whatever reason...tonight I have been real restless and just can't keep myself busy at all.  Kent is at work and won't be home for another hour.  Which with the way things are going will seem like forever.  I have done everything that I could think of to keep myself busy...  I've played PS2 like 2 or 3 times already, I've been on the internet more times then I can count, I've read other people's journals, I ate supper, I watched TV, I tanned, I did everthing that I could think of...and yet I am still bored.  Somebody help me!!!!!  Well, I guess that is all I really wanted to say.  I'll talk with yall later!

Sorry no updates

I'm sorry that there haven't been any updates lately.  But honestly, it's not my fault.  I tried twice yesterday to update my journal and everytime I saved it AOL just sat there.  I was like "are you going to save it or what?"  But AOL refused...oh well.  Hopefully, when I am done with this entry it will save!

The last few days have been pretty busy for me.  Kent and I went to Anniston and shopped around.  Kent got 3 new PS2 games and some more memory cards.  We went to the mall and shopped for some clothes.  I ended up getting some Aero jogging pants.  They are soooo comfortable.  Kent got him some pants there too, but his are more dress/casual pants.  Anywho, I was looking for me some new Newbalances.  These are like a navy/gray blue color.  Anyway, I saw them before but they didn't have my size so I couldn't get them at the time.  Now that I want them again I can seem to find them.  Maybe I'm not looking hard enough...oh well.  Yesterday, I just roamed around the house doing odds and ends.  I went to the dentist...no cavities.  That is always good to hear.  That has pretty much been my updates here lately.

Since Sunday I have been trying to walk a mile a day.  So far I have walked 4 miles.  I'm trying to walk atleast 6 miles a week.  And when I reach that goal and feel that I have "mastered" it I will up the miles some more.  Next week I'm probably going to start water aerobics.  A friend of mine is also supposed to be coming with me.  I'm seriously trying to stay in the best shape I can.  Since graduating from high school I have gained a few pounds.  Not a lot but a few.  And I am not in any shape or form in the same condition I was in high shool.  I was on the soccer team and I was in pretty good shape then.  Now...I couldn't even kick a soccer ball without getting out of breath.  OK...maybe I am exaggerating a bit...but you get the picture.  Well, once I get off this I am probably going to tan.  And that will probably be my day.  Then I'll come back home and relax and just chill until Kent gets off of work!  Until next time...later!

75 degrees?????

Whew...it's too warm to be January!!!  I can't believe it is this warm.  It's supposed to rain sometime today and cool everything back off.  I hope so.  It's just not right to be wearing short sleeves in winter!  Plus, I bought all these cute winter shirts and sweaters and I can't even wear them...shame!

Well, yesterday was a somewhat busy day.  I tanned and came home and gave myself a pedicure.  Then I got ready and went out for the night.  Kent, Jared, Lesli, and I all went out to eat and watch a movie.  We watched Lord of the Rings 3.  It was alright.  But by the time it was over I was glad it was over!  We got home about 12:30 or little bit after.  Kent and I went to bed.  But I woke up with tummy pains.  I didn't think I would ever get back to sleep.  But finally I did.

Kent is at work right now.  Looks like he will be there for two more hours than expected.  But that is OK.  It's overtime and that always pays good!  While he is at work, I'll probably go over to my parent's and tan and visit with them for a bit.  Then I'm going to just chill out at home and relax.  Sounds like a plan to me!  = o)   Well, that is all for now!  I'll talk with yall later!

To exercise or not to exercise

Well....today wasn't all that special.  I got up and was being way too lazy.  So, I decided to exercise.  That last a big grand total of like 5 minutes.  So, I decided to clean.  I just cleaned here and there...nothing special.  After that I made a turkey sandwhich and played around on the computer.  I then went and tanned.  I came home and waited on Kent to get off of work.  Once he got home we took a 30 minute walk.  Which was nice cause I felt like I finally exercised a bit.  We then came in and I took a shower.  Then I started supper.  My parents came over and my daddy measured somethings so we could build some shelves and have a little bit more storage.  After they left we just sat around and watched TV.  Kent and his cold finally gave out about 9:30pm and now I am up by myself typing in this lovely journal.  I guess that was my day.  Tomorrow, I plan to walk again and then tomorrow night we are going out with some friends for a dinner and movie.  Maybe Lord of the Ring 3 or maybe Lord of the Ring 3 for the guys and Mona Lisa Smile for the girls...we'll see!  Talk with yall later!

I've Got Pictures

These are from Christmas and the week after Christmas!  I hope yall enjoy them!

Happy New Year!

Well, 2004 is here.  In a few short months I will have been married for two years.  I can't believe I have been married for that long....yeah I know...wait until it's been 25 years. ; )  But really...it doesn't seem like it's been two years. 

There are a lot of things that I don't look forward to in 2004.  But those days I will have to brave through somehow.  If you are wondering what those days are....Feb 27th and July 24th.  The first one I imagine will be the hardest.  Cause that baby was my first to carry and the one I carried the longest.  Although I can also imagine that the second day won't be a bed of roses either.  But I believe I will manage.  Hopefully, my Feb. we will have some answers to our questions of fertility.  I'm excited though to see what the New Year brings.  I'm hoping for happiness, health, and many good times.  So...Happy New Year everyone!!!!!