A look back at 2003 Part 3

Please start with Part 1....

Looking back at this year I can see how much I have grown.  Through this year there have been many lessons.  Some I learned with grace and dignity...some I learned while kicking and screaming.  I have grown from a teenager to an adult.  I have had many great experiences and many horrible ones.  I have laughed, I have cried.  But thankfully I am still here breathing, learning, sharing, loving....I am still alive.  God has guided me through this year...and I know as 2004 comes He will still guide me.  Sometimes we will walk side by side....sometimes...He will have to carry me.  But I know with His strength...I will make it.  And I know that when our time is right we will be blessed with a beautiful and wonderful child....in His time.  So...I say goodbye to 2003 and look toward 2004 hoping and praying that it brings many wonderful times!  Happy New Year everyone!!!!!!!!

A look back at 2003 Part 2

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July came with a bang...literally....July 4th was a day of great excitement.  We had BBQ cookouts...swimming...fireworks......positive pregnancy tests...July 4th was the first time in my life that I really knew I was pregnant.  All the family was so excited. July was also Kent's 22nd birthay!  August came and the weeks flew by....all the way to August 23rd when we realized that I was miscarrying the baby.  August 25th came with a D&C and no longer were we pregnant.  Honestly...September and most of October are a blur to me.  I mostly remember crying and being seriously sad during those months.  But little did we know that November would bring big changes in our lives.  November was the month that I totally and fully gave my heart to God to be my Savior and Lord.  It also was the month that we got pregnant again.  We couldn't believe it.  December came with high hopes.  But ended in lost dreams.  December 15th we were told that we had miscarried again.  It was also the day that I had my second D&C.  Christmas came and Christmas went.  All in all it was a good Christmas...considering....

A look back at 2003 Part 1

A look back at 2003.....

The year for us started off as usual.  We were still in the trying to conceive mode, but weren't at the time so anxious for it to happen.  Valentine's Day we went on an over night trip to the Victoria.  The food was way out of our taste zones, but we still had a great time.  During March we celebrated a whole year of being together.  We ate our wedding cake from the year before...which honestly wasn't that bad.  During March, Kent started looking for a new job.  April came and Kent got an interview with the job he had applied for.  We were both very excited cause this new job meant that we would be more comfortable in our income.  May came with many things to do.  It was my birthday (May 13th) and I also graduated from college.  On May 19th, Kent started his new job.  June came with lots of changes.  Kent had to leave for 3 weeks to do training for his new job.  I moved back in with my parents for those 3 weeks.  Kent would come home on the weekends and see me.  June 19th is a day I will never forget.  My Mamaw died that day.  It was the first time that someone so close to me had passed away.  Little did we know that at the same time I was about 4 days pregnant.  I still miss her and she will forever be in my thoughts.  The funeral went great and soon we were back into a semi regular routine. 

Two shaves and a Hair cut....

Hey everyone!!!!  It's 12:15 in the morning and no one is on for me to talk to.  I guess everyone is sleeping.  I wish I were sleepy....oh well.  In less than 10 hours I am getting a hair cut.  Probably only a trim.  I guess I will let my hair grow out a bit for the summer.  Thick curly hair doesn't do well in the summer time.  So, a trim it is.  After the hair cut I probably will go tan.  I don't know though...we'll see.  I'll probably do some cleaning around my house.  That will be a load of fun.  Once Kent gets off of work, we are going to go to the movies.  I believe we are watching "Cheaper by the Dozen".  It looks like a cute little movie.  I hope so!  I figure in the not too distant future we will be watching "Lord of the Ring 3".  I am actually wanting to watch it.  I guess so it will be finalized for me.  So I will know why in the world I watched the first two.  Not that they are bad movies...in fact they are pretty good movies...but they are soooo long.  And with my very low patience level it's hard for me to sit there and watch a 3 hour movie without thinking....is this ever going to end!?!?!!?  But for the most part the movies are great and I would recommend them to anyone to watch!  Well, I guess for the most part that is all.  My day today was pretty much like I wrote it yesterday.  I grocery shopped, tanned, washed clothes, cleaned....  Well everyone that is it!  Later Gator!

Fudge

I love fudge....it's soooo fatting though.  It's a shame too.  Oh well.  I can eat all of it I want until Jan. 1st.  One of my many New Year's goals.  I'm going to exercise and really stick with it.  I am going to start drinking more water.  I am going to try and lose some weight.  Not really weight...but get my body fat down a bit.  I am going to try and get pregnant and stay pregnant (not really in control of that...but God knows the desires of my heart).  And I am going to try and be more of a people person.  I hate being shy.  I truly am shy....as Kent says...you will talk to anybody....as long as they talk to you first.  I don't know why I am shy...but as long as I can remember I always was shy.  Hopefully...as I grow up  = o )  I will be more out going.  Oh well.  I have many other goals...but I just haven't thought of them yet.  But I always make goals for myself....and most of the time I stick with them...so hopefully all these will stick as well.  Well, that is all for today.  I have many things to do tomorrow....wash clothes....grocery shop...tan....you know...usual stuff...lol.  Later all!

The ending of 2003

Wow...where did 2003 go?  It seems like yesterday that 2003 was just starting.  It's amazing how time flies as you get older.  Oh well. 

My day today was pretty good.  My moma, daddy, and I all went to GA. to go shopping.  I had a lot of fun doing that.  I looooooveeeeeee shopping.  I got a lot of clothes for a lot less than I thought.  I may do some more shopping later.  I am waiting on someone to come to my house in a few minutes.  After that....shopping I go.  Tomorrow Kent's Granny is having a big family lunch with tons of people coming.  I'm a little stressed about it...but just like Christmas...I will manage.  I'm hoping all goes well with it though and that we all have a lot of fun.  The weather is supposed to be really nice.  So, that will be good.  Well, everyone...I really don't have much to say today.  So, I will talk with yall later!

 

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Well, how was everyone's Christmas???  Mine was pretty good for the most part.  I got money and lotion and clothes today.  For the most part it was a good holiday.  At one place though...I had to go to the bathroom a couple of times to keep myself from crying...but for the most part...it was bareable.  I really don't have much to say...so I guess I will talk with everyone later!  MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!

Christmas Eve

Happy Christmas Eve!!!!  My Christmas Eve was soooo good!  My moma's side of the family did their Christmas tonight.  It went better then I thought.  I had a lot of fun.  I got some lotion and a beautiful ornament.  I also got a little change purse.  It is cute.  Then after that my parents and Jon Paul (my brother) and Ashley (his girlfriend) came over to my house.  We all exchanged presents.  I got clothes and gift cards.  Kent got clothes and a gift card.  It was great to have everyone together.  After the company left Kent and I exchanged our gifts.  I got a lot of neat things.  But my favorite would have to be two angels that Kent got me.  They each have a birthstone of each baby that we lost.  I wanted to cry.  But at the same time it made me feel so much better.  It's hard to explain.  It's almost like it's better cause now we have something to represent them even though they aren't with us.  Anyway, it was great.  Kent got from me clothes, a hat, and a drill...among other things. Even our little furbabies (cats) got some toys.  And some catnip.  They were very excited about that.  We took some pictures.  As soon as they get developed I'll post them on here.  It was really a great Christmas Eve.  Tomorrow we have tons of stuff to do.  I am a little anxious about two of the places we are going.  They each have a pregnant person at them.  I'm not looking forward to that.  But I believe I will manage and everything will be OK.  Atleast I hope so!  Well, everyone...just in case I don't get a chance before tomorrow...I want to wish everyone a MERRY CHRISTMAS and a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

Early Entry

I'm journaling a bit early today.  I still have a lot of stuff to do and then later tonight Kent and I are going to a Christmas gathering.  So, I have no idea when I will be able to journal again today.  So, let me tell ya about my day so far.  I got up at 9:30 and watched some TV and then started cleaning my house.  It took me only about an hour to do everything.  There wasn't that much to do, because I did my BIG cleaning in November.  So today was just cleaning the counter tops and sweeping and dusting.  That sort of stuff.  Then, I washed/still washing....clothes.  I have one load left and it is in the dryer so that will soon be done.  I still have some gift wrapping to do and believe it or not I still have two more gifts to get.  I thought about going to Goody's and looking around.  They have a cute jogging suit there and they had it on sale.  So, I may go there in a bit...but who knows???  After the Christmas thingy tonight I have to go to the grocery store and get some things.  Milk, cookies, snacks.  That sort of stuff.  It wouldn't be Christmas with out baking some cookies!  Hoping later on tonight Kent will be up to go driving around looking at Christmas lights.  We haven't had a chance to do that yet.  I am so happy and excited that Kent will be off Christmas Eve and Christmas!!!!!  We didn't know if he would be or not.  But thankfully he is!!!  YAY!!!  Well, that is all for now.  I MAY have a chance to journal later!  We'll see!!!  Later all!!!!!!

Busy Day

Well, today was a very busy day.  It started at 5:30 this morning.  I got up and got ready to go to the doctor's.  I left here about 7:15 and got in B'ham at about 8:15....whew.  Just in time for my appointment.  He checked me over and said that everything was looking good.  I have to go back in a month or so and have like 5 tests ran.  Hopefully, we will find the problem if there is one.  Hopefully, everything will work out soon enough.  Although, I think it will be March before we offically start trying to conceive again.  But if something happens...well then it just does.  But we aren't going to try and make anything happen.  I honestly don't want to get pregnant again until I know everything is OK.  Well, after the doctor visit, I came home and Lesli and I chatted for a bit.  Then I talked with my daddy and ended up going to the mall with him to do Christmas shopping for my moma....he is such a last minute shopper!  Anywho...then after all that I came home.  I waited on Kent to get home and when he finally got home we went to go and get his hair cut and then BACK to the mall we go.  He had to take his shoes back.  They weren't wide enough!  We ended up not finding any others that fit.  I guess he will just save the money until we can find some that fit him.  After shopping, we went to see my moma and daddy.  I tanned while I was there.  After that we came home...where I am presently typing to yall.  Well, eveyone that is all for tonight!  I hope everyone has a good day tomorrow and hope everyone gets their shopping done in time!!!!!  Merry Early Christmas to all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My Sunday

Well, my Sunday was uneventful.  Nothing majored happened.  I went to Granny's and ate lunch and then chatted with everyone for a bit.  I came home and waited on Kent to get back from work.  My kidneys...or back...or whatever were/was....hurting me sooo bad.  So, I went to my parents and got in the tanning bed...it made me feel sooo much better.  Then Kent and I went to Wally World and got some stocking stuffers.  We ran into my brother in the parking lot and chatted with him for about 45 minutes or so.  Then we came home and ate supper.  Then we just sat around and watched TV.  Then Lesli called me and she decided to go to the doctor with me.  Which is cool.  I got Kent to call his mom for me to tell her that she didn't have to go with me to the doctor.  I was too chicken to call.  I didn't want her to hate me or something.  I still ended up talking with her for a few minutes.  She seemed cool with it all.  I hope she was.  I didn't want to hurt her feelings or anything.  I'm hoping I didn't.  I did want her to go...but at the same time I wanted Lesli to see St. Vincent's so she can maybe get some ideas if St. V's is where she might want to go...if she changed doctors...not saying she is...but if she wanted to.  I am proud of where I go...and think it's a great place for women to have babies at.  Oh well...enough of my mouth!  I'll chat with yall later  Oh and tomorrow is my doctor's appointment so yall keep me in your prayers!  Later gator!

My Saturday

Well, my Saturday has been a pretty easy going day.  I got up around 10:30 or so and ate some breakfast.  Then Kent and I just watched some TV and then we ordered some pizza.  After the pizza came....it took the delivery person almost an hour to get here....we ate and watched a movie that came on TV.  It was a pretty good movie...forgot though what it was called.  Well, after Kent left for work, I hate some supper....chicken and stars soup.  It was pretty good.  And healthy...  Then I cleaned my house.  Not really cleaned it clean, but more like straightened it up and stuff like that.  Then I took a shower....it felt so good to just stand in there and let the hot water hit my stomach......cramps, cramps, cramps.  So after the shower, I watched Trading Spaces and put a hot pad thingy on my tummy.  Now, I sit here typing and chatting with my daddy!  Well everyone...that is all for today!  Yall come back tomorrow!!!!

Cash or credit?

Well, Kent, my mom, my dad, and I went shopping tonight.  I had to take back some shoes I bought Kent cause they were too big...go figure.  And then I needed some blue jeans.  So, we go and get Kent a new pair of shoes...some New Balance.  And then we head to GAP.  Well, we walk in there and I grab a pair of jeans to go and try on.  Before I finish this story, I have to give those of you who don't know me very well some background on me.  I have a butt that is tiny, tiny, tiny.  So, I like to wear jeans that have flaps on the back pockets.  It makes my butt look a bit bigger.  Not that I am trying to show my butt off to people...I just think I look better that way.  ANYWAYS...back to my story.  So, I go in the dressing room and try on these jeans....people...you could have laid me down on the floor face first and ironed a shirt on my butt...cause those jeans made my butt look soooo flat!  So, I come out of the dressing room like OK..on to American Eagle.  So we go there.  I found a pair of jeans...on sale....and go and try them on.  They are pretty close...not perfect...but close...I'LL TAKE IT!  Then we head down to Martains to see if there are any jeans there.  Well, I try on these great LEVI jeans.  They were soooo perfect for my small booty!  But, the little roll that I have left over from the pregnancy (which as soon as I can exercise will be gone!) just hung over the jeans.  And I HATE that!!!!  So, I didn't get those.  But as soon as I lose some of this gut...I am going back!  For those of you thinking....dang you spend a lot of money on clothes.  Well, not really.  I clothes shop yes but it isn't all the time.  My husband...the wonderful man that he is...has let me splurge a little bit due to the situation we have currently been in.  Anyways, I am telling yall..by no means...are we falling deep into debt.  So yall can rest easy tonight!  Well, that is all for today.  I'll try and check back in tomorrow!!!!!!!

We're back Part Two

If you are just nowing joining us...start with part one of my story....

Well, we get to the place to eat and they sit us now by this window over looking the mountains.  It was so pretty!!!  So, we are sitting there and all of a sudden the wind starts blowing like crazy!  The people who work there are like whoa the wind is bad tonight!  So, the wind starts blowing really, really, really hard and bows the window in.  Kent...being afraid of heights to begin with....starts freaking out.  So, we finish our meal...which wasn't that good to begin with.....and leave.  Well, we get back to the cabin and watch TV and fall asleep.  Well, about 5:15 this morning I woke up (graphic material coming up) and I am covered in blood and laying in a puddle of blood.  I am like what in the world...so I go to the bathroom....and of course it was me.  Great.  So, I go and try to find something else to wear.  Well, Kent wakes up and is like what is wrong.  I am trying not to cry but really all I wanted to do was cry, cause I was thinking...I'm not supposed to even be having to go through this.  So, I tell him...I want to go home.  So we pack up and about 6ish we head home.  Well, I am thinking...the only thing left that could happen to us is falling slap off this mountain...thankfully we didn't.  We head to Wally World to get some extra long....extra thick pads.  Once home...my "flow" is regular.  All we get think of is that the elevation had something to do with it.  Oh well.  Now I sit here washing clothes and typing.  I'll talk with yall later!

We're back! Part One

We'll we are back.  Yes, it is like 8:45 in the morning and we are back.  It was to say the least an adventure.  Let me just start from the beginning.....

All day yesterday I just had a feeling this trip was going to be either a really good one or a really bad one.  I knew there was no in between.  So, we get there about 4:15 or so and get our keys to the cabin.  Well we start up the mountain and we can't find our cabin.  Well we finally find somebody who worked in the park and they took us to our cabin.  We get there and it's this beautiful cabin.  I would highly recommend it to anyone.  Anyways, we get in the cabin and after checking everything out Kent goes to the car to get our stuff.  About 30 seconds later we comes back and tells me he locked the keys in the car.  Well I thought well I got my keys in my purse.......my purse is in the car.......crap.  So, Kent goes back out there to try and pick the lock while I try and call someone to help us.  Well, no phone.  So, I go back out there and tell Kent.  Well, he comes back in and is like there isn't a phone????  So, we realize....whew....cell phone.  So get on it and call my dad...but he is still like a hour and away and the place where we wanted to eat closes at 8 and this was like 5 by now...and we still had to take showers and get ready.  So, Kent calls the front office and tells them the problem.  They call the park rangers who come out and spend like 45 mins trying to pick the lock to our car.  WOOHOO...they get it.  So, Kent thanks them and they are on their way.  We hurriedly(is that word?) get dressed to go eat.  Well, I try to open my car door (passenger side) and it won't open.  We are guessing due to the lock picking that our locks are now messed up.  So I have to enter and exit out of the driver's side.   

Shopping helps...

Well, I just got back from the mall.  Shopping helped me cheer up a bit....maybe only for awhile or so.....but I'll take it.  I bought two bras from Victoria Secret, 2 sweaters from American Eagle, and some lotion from Bath and Body Works.  So, I feel a bit better.  Kent got a new playstation game is in there now playing it.  He feels better too...lol.

Tomorrow we are going on an over night trip to the moutains.  We got a cabin with a fireplace, a whirlpool tub,and a porch over looking the mountains with a swing on it.  We just needed to get away for a bit.  I'm looking forward to it.  I'll let yall know how it goes.  So, I probably won't have an entry for tomorrow so yall will just have to read this one reaaallll slllooowww.

Last night I found out one of my cousins is pregnant with her second baby.  I'm a little upset because the guy she is having it will is a weirdo with a captial W.  He doesn't take care of the kids he has.  He has one with another girl and then one girl with my cousin and now this new baby makes 3.  Oh well.  It's just hard sometimes to see why God allows things like this to happen.  I know there is a Big Picture out there and we just can't see it and everything has its purpose...but at the same time its hard for me a human with a worldly flesh to see the good in it all.  Oh well.  I guess that is all!  I'll talk with yall later!

The day after

Well, it's the first day after surgery and for the most part I am fine.  I have been more quiet with this miscarrage than the last one.  I guess the reason mostly is because I am talking to myself more this time.  The last time I wanted to talk with everyone else and see what they were thinking and what they thought about the whole situation.  This time, I am mostly asking myself all the questions and just talking with myself.  Which may help me get through this a little bit easier...if that is possible.  With this miscarriage I'm not so eager to have a conversation with people about it.  In fact, telling people this time has been the hardest part.  I just really don't want to talk about it.  I guess mostly because I talk to myself about it all day.  I looked up a website tonight at discoveryhealth and typed in blighted ovum.  It had some really good information on it.  If you are curious about what a blighted ovum is...just visit that site.  Well, I set an appointment for De. 22 at 8:15 in the morning to have my check-up after the D&C.  That is when we will start scheduling all the appointments for all the testing that will be done in January.  Yall please keep me in yours prayers.  Cause even now, I don't know how all this is going to play out.  I am hoping for the best, but trying not to get my hopes up like that last couple of times.  Well, that is all for now.  I'll talk with yall later! 

In square one I stand

Well, I went for an ultrasound this morning. Found out my uterus was tilted backwards (whatever that means), the nurse said that wasn't anything to worry about. Well, we get in there and the lady is doing her thing and when she is done I go see my doctor. He tells me the one thing I never ever ever wanted to hear again..."You've miscarried." So, I cry and cry and cry. The doctor sets up a D&C for 1:30 pm. So we get there and my D&C is done and I come home and sleep. I honestly wish I could just sleep right through Christmas. My doctor though was really great. He was compassionate and he even called my house tonight to check up on me. He gave Kent his cell # just in case we need him. Which I thought was really nice. The surgery, I think, went better this time then the last. I am not bleeding near as much and I am in no pain. I go Monday for a check up. Then in January the doctor wants to start running tests to see why in the world this is happening to me.....again. Well, that is all. I'm hopefully going back to sleep...maybe I'll wake up around 10ish in the morning on Dec. 26th.

Pills, pills, pills

OOOOOK.  I have taken so many pills, I have lost count.  Four pills a day is where I am at now.  I know there are a lot of people out there to who take a lot more than that a day, but for me...it's a lot.  My prenatal vitamins are fine, but my progesterone pills are kicking my butt.  Once I take them I am useless for like 3 hours.  I hate taking them.  But in the long run they will be worth it I'm sure.  But right now they are making me sick.  I hope when I go to the doctor Monday that he will tell me that if my progesterone levels are up then I don't have to take them anymore.  Here's hoping!!!!  I'm looking forward to Monday though.  We hopefully will see a little heartbeat.  But we have to get up at like 5 in the morning.  We have to be there at 7:30 when they open and hopefully be "worked in" for an ultrasound.  My doctor appointment is at 11 so hopefully we will get in by then.  Let's all pray that I do!  Well, that's all for tonight!  I'll talk with yall later!!!

Tiny fingers, tiny toes

OH YEAH...my baby has fingers and toes!!!!  Well, they are forming as we speak.  If you go to my Babycount down page you will see all the developements that are going on right now.  The weeks so far have been going by some what fast.  I guess with all the doctor visits and all the holiday activities it just makes time go by a bit faster.  I know one thing, I am ready for this tiredness and feeling sick all the time to pass.  I just don't feel like me.  I feel like a lazy person who just sits around all day doing nothing.  Which is pretty much all I do...atleast these past couple of days.  Kent has been so good to me so far.  He helps wash the dishes and sometimes just tells me to go lay down and he'll do the dishes.  He has even cleaned the house for me.  He helps with the clothes when they are being washed.  He even tells me to go lay down on the couch and then brings me my pillow and some covers to take a nap with.  Every night before we go to sleep he kisses me and then kisses the baby.  He has been a really great husband to me through this pregnany.  I can't wait to see how he acts with the baby.  He'll be adorable!  Well, I guess that is all for tonight!  Yall feel free to leave comments.  I could love to know who is reading my stuff!  Later!

Blah

Blah....that's how I am feeling.  I am so happy to be pregnant but at the same time I just feel blah all the time.  No energy just laziness.  I haven't really "cleaned" my house in what feels like weeks.  Taking 4 pills a days makes me want to gag.  If you know anything about me you know that I am not a pill person.  I gag at even the though of a horse pill trying to slide down my throat!

On a more happy note, I went to the Christmas parade tonight.  It was pretty good.  It got me a little more in the spirit, but not that much.  Maybe when it gets closer I will be more in the mood.  We'll see.

I  have been thinking a lot about what kind of mother I will be.  I am so scared that I won't be a good mom.  I am scared that I won't be as involved as I would like.  Or that I will not bond with my children the way I would like to bond.  I am scared that my children won't love me as much as I want them to.  I have a lot of worries I guess about the whole parenting thing.  I guess only time will tell.  I'll talk with yall later!

Sorry no updates!

Sorry that it's been so long since an update.  I really haven't been on here that much lately.  The effects of being pregnant are taking their toll on me.  With the progesterone pills that I have been taking, I have to take a nap or something after or I will be dizzy for hours afterwards!  Plus, I am just so tired most of the time.  I am glad though that I am atleast having some symptoms this time around.  But at the same time, I am just ready for July to be here so we can have our little baby!!!  I did a due date calculator the other day, which I already know the due date that the doctor gave me but it only goes by your last period, this other goes by how many cycle days you have etc, etc.  Well, I put in there all the information that it wanted and the due date came back July 28th, 2004.  Which is Kent's birthday.  He was soooo excited.  He keeps telling me this baby will be born on his birthday.  I have a feeling it will be born like around July 14.  Well, see.  The baby will come when he/she gets good and ready I guess!  So far, I haven't really been in the Christmas spirit this year.  Everyone else around me is like this is the first year in a long time that they have been in the mood.  I guess the reason I haven't is because I am looking more towards July then Christmas.  But I am tring to get into the mood.  I am currently listening to Christmas music, so maybe that will help.  Well, I guess that is all for now.  I'll talk with yall later!

Baby names

OK.  So, I've had some people asked me if we have any names picked out for our up and coming baby in July.  Well of course we do!!!  For a little girl...Zoey Taylor.  If a little boy....Jonathan Kent Jr. but we will call him Jon Kent.  If by some weird chance (hush daddy) we have twins then the second girl name would be Landy something or another and a boy...well nothing so far for another boy name.  So, let's just think one baby for now.  If two are growing inside me...first you will have to pick me up off the floor cause I've fainted and then we can figure out names.  Haha. 

Well, for the most part today was blah.  I took a progesterone pill...and got dizzy...went and took a nap and felt better.  Besides that nothing really.  Straightened up the house a little bit and played on the internet.  Nothing exciting.  Kent is due home in about 30 mins or so.  Then he is going back into work at 7:30 in the morning.  And we get to spend Friday night together.  That is a first in a long time.  Well, I'll talk with yall later!  BYE!!!!

Nothing special

Well, nothing major has happened.  Just a couple of days closer to having this little life growing inside me.  The docotor told me that my progesterone was a little low so I have started taking progesterone pills to get my levels back where they need to be.  The pills make me dizzy though.  But they also help me sleep sooo much better.  I don't know why.  They just do.  Kent and I had our "monthly" date.  We try to have one date a month.  Where we get dressed up and we go for dinner and a movie.  We went to the mall and shopped and ate and watched a movie tonight.  We watched ELF.  It was a cute little movie.  Then we went to Wally World...and this is where I would like to thank my daddy....thanks daddy!  Kent bought a 8 foot or is it feet Santa Clause....yeah that's right.  So, thanks again my loving father!!!!  ::::::::::::::::::Sarcasm:::::::::::::::::::::  So, that will be up and running tomorrow.  Come by and take a peek!!!  It won't be hard to see.  Well, now we are home and I am or was helping Kent wrap a gift....he is so cute.  Well, I am off.  I'll talk with yall later!!!!!

Bored

I was just bored, so I decided to write in here for a bit.  I'm currently waiting on Kent to get home so we can go to bed.  I am so tired.  I really don't feel all that great either.  Kinda like when you are first starting to get the flu.  I hope it's not the flu...that means 9 times out of 10 the hospital for a preggo.  I just hope it's another sign of pregnancy and it passes soon!  Tomorrow will be a fun day of waiting by the phone.  I won't be able to get on the internet or go out shopping or whatever.  It's worth it to know that everything is OK, but at the same time it kind of ties me down for the day.  I guess I'll get some washing done and maybe some cleaning.  And maybe we'll get to finish decorating the inside and outside of our house for Christmas.  We were supposed to go to Wally World and get some decorations.  We'll see.  Hopefully the hospital will call early and give us the results so we can be free to do things tomorrow!  Well, enough chatting!!!  I'll talk with yall later!!!

Doctor Appointment Today

Well, I went to the doctor today.  They took some more blood and I will get the results to that tomorrow.  The doctor said that everything seems to be fine and that I am to come back in 2 weeks to have a sonogram done to see if we can see the heartbeat.  If we do then my doctor will refer us to someone who delivers.  I'm hoping and praying for a heartbeat!!!!

OK. So let me tell you what happened at the doctor's office.  It seems like everytime I go there I get all nervous and stuff.  Well, we get there today and I had to pee really badly, but couldn't cause I didn't know if they needed that for a test or something so I wait.  Well, then I start feeling sick so I start freaking out thinking I am going to get sick all over this office.  Well, they finally call me back there to a ROOM...so before going to a room I dash into the bathroom.  Well, a few minutes went by and I was still in there trying to make sure all was "done" (sorry, I'm trying not to give yall a mental pic of me being sick).  Well, I hear again...Emily please come to room 1.  Kent is sitting out in the waiting room wondering what happened to me...thinking I got lost or something.  So I finally make it to the room and the nurse was like are you OK...I was like I am now.....

Oh well, that was my day.  I am fixing to go sit under the tree and wrap gifts!!!  I'll talk with yall later!!!!

Something New

Well, I have found a new site to keep everyone updated on the baby situation.  The link will be in my site column to the right ~~> .  It's a pretty neat site.  I hope yall enjoy!

Well, tomorrow is another day at the doctor's office.  I'm getting a bit nervous.  I just don't know what to expect.  I have had some sickness.  Today at Granny's house we were eating lunch and I had a slight stomach problem.  Nothing to call "morning sickness" or afternoon, or whatever time it was.  Probably more in my head than anything!  It's Ok though.  I rather have symptoms than not!  I ate a few crackers and I was fine.  By 5:00 pm I was craving another plate from Granny's.  It's all good!  Speaking of craving...I'm hungry!  I'll talk with yall later!

COLD!!!!!

It's cold!!!!  Even in the house.  This back room/craftroom/computer room doesn't warm up all that quickly.  My little hands are like ice.  I'm hoping it will warm up soon...in my house...I like it cold outside!

I am about to go and clean my house.  Very slowly and carefully that is.  What usually took me about 45 mins. to an hour will probably take 2 hours for me now.  I am taking things slow for awhile!!!! 

I got a lot of Christmas shopping done last night!  I only have like 3 more people to buy for and I am done.  Well, except for Kent.  He is starting to get to be the hardest person to buy for.  When he asked me what I want, I lay it all out on the table.  LOL  But he just says...whatever you want to buy me.  He is a mess!!!  But I love him!!!!!

Well, I am off.  I have clothes to wash and a house to clean.  And maybe a visit to Wally world.  We'll see!  I'll talk with yall later!!!!!  BYE!!!!!!

Black Friday

OK.  So to the retail world today is "Black Friday".  You would think they would call it "Green Friday" cause everyone is spending their money.  Oh well.  I'm going to the mall later tonight with my parents.  I think I might pick a few things up for Kent.  Santa called and said that Kent has been a good boy this year...so what the hey.  I guess he can get "something".  The tradition of going to Wally World at midnight was offically taken out last night.  We rolled up to Wally and they were CLOSED.  Until 6am.  HOW RUDE!!!!  So, so much for that tradition.  We'll have to find us another one.  I still need to go to Wally and get a journal and a date calendar.  I'm going to start journaling on paper about my pregnancy so when I get preggo again or when this baby grows up...we can read what all happened.  I need a date book so I can keep up with all my dates with the doctor and haircut appt.  and stuff like that.  I did have one, but it runs out in December!  Whew, it is WINDY outside today...and cold too.  But I LOVE it!!!!  I'm glad that it is cold.  I can't wait until we get snow....if we even do.  We didn't last year.  Not even a dusting!!!!  I was looking forward to it...it would have been mine and Kent's first snow together!  Oh well.  Well, I have typed enough.  I'll talk with yall later!!!!

Happy Gobble Day

Just thought I would drop everybody a note and say "HAPPY THANKSGIVING!"  I've already had the whole Thanksgiving dinner and all the trimmings.  I am still stuffed.  I've still got one more Thanksgiving tradition to tackle.  Kent and I always go to Wal-Mart at midnight and shop for Christmas presents and stocking stuffers.  It is always fun to do. 

To update everyone of the pregnancy journey...I'm 6 weeks today.  I've been tired a lot though.  But I'm glad that atleast I am having symptoms with this pregnancy.  I have an appointment Monday at 11.  I don't know what all will be done then, but I hope everything is still OK.  I'll let yall know.  Well, I am off.  I'll talk with yall later!

Thankful

I know that Kent and I have already put up our tree and took down the "fall decorations", but I just wanted to tell everyone what I am thankful for this Thanksgiving.  I am thankful for my salvation cause with out it I would be lost and going to hell.  I am thankful for a God who would send His only Son to die for me.  I am thankful for a family that loves me and supports me.  I am thankful for a child that I will never see on earth but is waiting for me in heaven.  I am thankful for a second chance from God to be a parent here on earth.  I am thankful for a husband who puts up with me even in my times of mood swings.  I am thankful for my health.  I am thankful for our income...it may not be a lot but it puts food on the table and clothes on my back and I don't go to bed at night cold.  I am thankful for a country that still gives me freedom to practice my religion...even though it may not for long.  I am thankful for beautiful days after a storm.  I am thankful for so many things.  We all have something to be thankful for.  I hope that everyone has a wonderful Thanksgiving!!!!!!

Update!

Well, today was a great day!!!  Kent and I put up our Christmas tree and some decorations.  Our tree is the prettiest tree ever!!!!!!  I took some pics of it.  I'll post them once I get them developed.  My doctor's office called and said that all my tests came back just fine.  I have an appointment Monday, Dec. 1st. at 11.  I am still a bit nervous about it all, but I am slowing starting to calm down.  Just keep praying for me please.  Tomorrow, Kent and I are going grocery shopping.  We are seriously out of food...lol.  Well, we have junk food, but that isn't good for me plus it gives me heartburn.  I've got Tums though...yummm....not!  It works though!  Well, I guess that is all for today.  I'll talk with yall later!!!

WOOOOOOOHOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OK.  First of all...sorry no entry in the past few days.  I  have been a busy little bee!  Second of all.....I am no longer going to sell jewelry....why you ask?  Well, third of all....................I AM PREGNANT! Oh yeah you read right.  I am pregnant.  Surprised?  Me too!  I'm pregnant!  I can't believe it.  But I am.  I went to the doctor today (Monday) and I am 5 weeks.  Due to my last pregnancy which ended in a miscarriage, the doctor is keeping a very close eye on me.  He wants to make sure that everything is OK.  He ran some tests today for different hormones.  He did a progesterone  test and I am supposed to get the results to that tomorrow.  If it is low I will start taking two pills a day of progesterone until he tells me other wise.  So I'm not out of the woods yet!  So please please please pray for me and this baby and Kent (he will have to deal with me for the next 9 months....hehehee).  I'm really nervous already and a little scared.  So please keep me in your prayers!  Well, that is all for today.  I'll talk with yall later!!  WOOHOOO I'm preggo!!!!!

Well.....

It looks like I am in the jewelry business.  Well, I will be soon.  I think I can get a lot out of the work I will be doing.  So I am really hoping to get things started pretty soon!  The lady who is helping me get all of this done is coming to the house tomorrow and helping me with the paper work of it all.  I hope to have my first show by Dec. 6th.  We'll see.  I'm really excited about it.

Tomorrow Kent and I are going over to Lesli and Jared's house to watch the Auburn/Alabama football game.  WAR EAGLE!  We are going to grill out and just have fun.  I hope we all have a good time.  Well, folks that is all for today.  Nothing special.  I'll talk with yall later!

Just thinking

I've bee thinking a lot lately about many things.  Like, with the whole trying to have a baby thing...when I talk about it people are always like it will happen when you just don't think about it and just relax.  Well, for one it's hard not to think about it.  I think about my m/c daily and when I think that I think of wanting a baby.  The relaxing part is not going to happen either.  My body right now is so confused with itself that I couldn't relax even if I wanted to.  I think I am going to have to call my DR pretty soon.  AF hasn't showed up and I really don't think I am preggo.  So I think I may need something to jump start my cycle.  And plus, its stressful not knowing what is going on in your body.  I just want to have some sort of routine for my body.  Well, see how it goes.  I'm kind of nervous about even calling the DR cause I'm scared he will be like...well you just need to wait things out and let your body do its thing.  Well, what if something is really wrong and it can't do it's thing???  So many questions and so little answers.  Oh well.  I think I might try and head to bed here in a bit.  I need to get up and get ready to meet a lady at 11 for an appointment about selling jewelry.  I'll let yall know how it goes!  I'll talk with yall later!

A new career for me?

Well, today so far has been a pretty good day.  The sun is shining the sky is blue and the weather is cool.  A lady that sells Premeire Jewelry called today because I was interested in selling it.  We made an appointment to eat lunch and talk about me getting into it.  We are meeting tomorrow at 11.  I'm really looking forward to it.  I'm hoping that I am good at it and that everything works out for me.  It would be a great little job to have.  I'm hoping to have atleast one show before Christmas, so I can get the feel of it and see if it's really for me.  I hope so.

I really have nothing planned for today.  I think I might head over to my parent's and straighten up their house a little bit so I don't have so much to do tomorrow since I am meeting that lady!  I also need to get things cleaned up around my house.  I am in the process of washing clothes now.  Tonight all I have planned is to watch Friends and just spend time with Kent.  Hopefully, it will be a relaxing night!  Well, I'll talk with yall later!

Money, Money, Money

My jewelry party went so great.  Although not all my invited guests showed it still turned out to be a great success.  We had a lot of fun.  We played games, we ate, we shopped, and we all in all had a blast!  I think the final total for all the money spent was $528!  They said the average show does about $400.  So, I was way excited about that.  And I got $206 in free jewelry.  So, I got a lot of Christmas shopping done.  I am so excited.  It went a lot better than what I thought it would!

I am so in the Christmas mood.  I can't wait.  My neighbors across the street have already put up their tree and it looks so pretty through the window.  I think Kent and I are going to do our decorating the day after Thanksgiving.  I'm really looking forward to it.  My house looks so cute when it is decorated for Christmas.  I can't wait to turn on the Christmas music and sit under the tree and wrap gifts.  It is always my favorite thing to do!  Although this Christmas will be a little sad for me and my family, for many reasons it will still be a great time of togetherness and a growing experience for me.  This will be the first Christmas without my MawMaw Cummings and this Christmas I would have been preggo.  But you know what...all things happen for the glory of God.  And I know that spiritually, emotionally, and physically I will be a lot more mature because of the trails I've been through.  Well, I am off to relax for a bit and get enjoy the day.  I'll talk with yall later!

My Big Day Today

Well, I have a big day ahead of me.  I have to go get my hair cut at 10:00am.  Which I think I am going in for my shortest Do ever.  Kent said he liked my hair short...so we'll see.  If you see me walking around with a hat on for the next few weeks or so you will know that it didn't go so well.  I'm hoping it does go well.  I'm just scared that my hair won't do right short.  You know?  I have thick curly hair so I just wonder that when it is all said and done will it look like I have a big fizzy cottonball sitting on my head.  I'm going to ask my stylist if it is a good idea to cut it short.  I'll let yall know!  After the hair cutting I have to go to Food World and pick up a few things for my party tonight.  I'm really looking forward to it.  I hope a lot of people show up.  It should be a fun time.  Well, when I get home I still have a few things that I need to get done.  I still have to dust and take out the trash.  I have to make some tea and get all the cookies baked and all that fun stuff.  I have to make sure that my house is in good order.  I'm excited about it all though!  I'll let yall know how it turns out!

My neighbors across the street put up their Christmas tree I'm guessing yesterday.  I was like wow it's early.  But at the same time I looked at Kent and gave him that look like...we need to do that pretty soon.  He gave me that look like....why me?  LOL  My daddy warned him before we got married that I am spoiled and I am a handfull.  But my daddy made me that way....ain't that right daddy?  Go ahead and nod your head.  You know its true...lol.  Well, I need to go and get some stuff done.  I'll talk with yall later!  BYEEEE!

Can we say clean?

My house is clean.  And when I say clean, I mean clean.  Let's just put it this way.  I got up at 10:15.  Threw a pot roast in the crock pot and started cleaning at 11ish.  I got done at about 9:45pm.  I had some breaks here and there, went to Wally World and had supper, but for the most part I was cleaning.  I even have a battle wound to prove it.  I so burnt my arm on the iron...ouch!  I pouted about it for a bit and it still hurts, but I'll be fine.  I still have some more stuff to do tomorrow as well...but after that I am done.  YAY!!!! 

I would have to say that yesterday was a rough day.  Could you tell?  Well, for the most part I am much better today.  I know that the whole miscarriage thing is a battle that I will have to fight from now until I die, but I know with each new day that God slowly takes that pain away and replaces it will hope and wisdom and understanding and patience(and He knows I need that).  I know that eventually in time that the sharp and seeming endless pain with someday be a dull pain that reminds me of just have sovereign God is.  And how we have to completely trust in Him.  He knows what's best for us and I have to continually keep reminding myself that.  I know my time is coming for a baby.  And when that time comes...I'll be ready, because God has trained me to be a parent that knows things can happen and that time is a gift to us...not a right.  We are to make best what God has given us.  If that's the only one thing I learn.  I will treasure my child in away that I wouldn't have before.  Because I will know that the child God gave me is truly a miracle.

I'll talk with yall later!

Regrets

I can honestly say that I don't have many regrets in my life.  But the most recent regret that I have is this:  Right after my miscarriage I had all this time where I could have grieved with full support of my family and friends.  With full attention from my family and friends.  But I thought the sooner I just try and put everything behind me the better off I will be.  At first it was fine, because I knew that at that time trying for another baby was out of the question...atleast until my body healed.  Well, it seems as my body healed, my heart didn't.  My regret is not grieving then.  Cause now its hard to without people thinking, "Is she not over it already?"  No, I'm not over it, no I can't move on so easily.  I never even got to know what my baby was, I never got to hold my baby.  I never got to make memories with my child.  I think that's what makes it hardest.  If someone you loves dies, you have memories to look back on and cherish.  But with miscarriages you don't.  All you have is emptiness.  That's all...no memories.  Just emptiness.

  Today my MIL started talking about someone that I know having another baby, her 5th to be exact and how it was a surprise.  I said that I didn't want to talk about it.  I don't know if she heard me or not but still...she then goes on to tell how this lady's husband was suppose to get fixed but at the last minute chickened out.  And 6 weeks later she is pregnant.  So I get the bright idea to come home and take a pregnancy test.  STUPID, STUPID, STUPID!  It comes back negative.  I'm seriously hoping that I tested too soon.  But I doubt it.  I know God has a purpose for everything and that everything has it's time...but that doesn't mean I understand that.  All I understand is that I am hurting and that I long for the baby I had.  I long for any baby.  I long not to hurt anymore...  I then feel guilty for longing for these things.  Cause I feel like I am not trusting God the way I am sursposed to.  I just hope things clear up soon.  I just hope that someday I look back on this and can see why things happened...

LOL This is too funny!

OK.  This is too funny.  I was sitting here just chillin', so I decided to reorganize my hall closet.  So, I get in there and I am moving stuff around.  Well, I was moving a bunch of Kent's hats and throwing them on the floor to give them away and plop....down falls a pregnancy test.  And yes it's the pregnancy test that Kent was hiding from me.  I just stood there and stared at it...lol.  He said I would never find it.  LOL.  He should know better than to stick it somewhere that I might organize!  I left it sitting on the entertainment center so that will be the first thing he sees when he comes in the door.  And if you are asking yourself....well is she going to use it?  I'm tempted to, but I will have to resist.  I just feel its way too early.  Even though I really, really, really want to take one and test right now.  But I'll try my best to just ignore it and continue cleaning.  I'll talk with yall laters!!!!

Playing the Waiting Game

Last night was a busy little night for me.  I moved my computer from my living room into the extra bedroom/craftroom now/ computer room.  It was a tough little job to do all by myself.  But it got done and I put it all back together.  And it works!  Then I did a bit of cleaning.  Nothing much, just dusted the fans and cleaned the area where the computer used to be.  Then I made some more bracelets and earrings.  I mostly was on and off the internet all night.  Pretty much doing anything to keep myself busy!  I finally went to sleep at like 5 in the morning.  I got up at 12ish and had my quiet time and then went to my parent's house to clean.  I finished there around 2:30.  I came home and just played around on the computer.  I woke the hubby up at 4 and then cooked supper at about 6ish.  Now, I sit here talking to my daddy on IM.  I have no set plans for tonight.  But Kent is off tomorrow/Sunday and Monday.  I'm excited.  We get to go to church and not be worried about getting back in time to get Kent to work or whatever. 

BTW, it has been cold here.  I like it though and hope it stays that way from now on!  It's just not right for it to be cold and Thanksgiving time.  And that goes for Christmas too. 

Right now I am in the period of time where I am waiting to see if I am pregnant.  I am CD29 right now.  But I can't count on that to be a regular cycle cause of my miscarriage.  So I am going to wait a week or so.  I really want to take a test but at the same time, I am scared to.  I've done told yall that, but its just the way I feel.  So now I am playing the waiting game.  FUN FUN!  Anyways, that is all that I have for tonight.  Have a good weekend everyone!

My day!

Well, today was a great day.  The weather here is so much cooler.  It was in the high 50s low 60s.  It is sooo cold out there right now.  It's great.  Kent and I got new cell phones.  They are the Nextel phones.  Pretty neat.  We also went to Wal-Mart and bought some stuff.  I had to get some cork board so I can keep you with all my orders and stuff for bracelets.  I haven't put it up yet, but I hope to before the night is over.  I am so fighting the need to clean.  I want to start my cleaning now.  And in a way I still might do it.  We'll just have to see.  If I am still on at like 2 or 3 in the morning you'll know I'm cleaning!  Oh well.  What can I do?  CLEAN!!!!!  Well, that was my day.  I'll talk with yall laters!!!!

Smallville

I've just got done watching Smallville.  It was a pretty good show.  Kent is way more into it than I am.  I'm watching the Bachelor right now.  We'll see how it goes.

My craftroom is set up and completed!  I am so totally excited about it.  I'm going to go in there in a bit and play around with all my stuff.  I think we are going to move the computer and all the stuff that goes with it in there too.  That will make more room in the living room.  Umm...maybe I can get Kent to that later.  We'll see!  Anyway, I'll talk with ya later!

Good news!

OK.  Many of you already know cause you have read my email already.  But here it goes again for those who haven't!  Today Nov. 11, 2003, I gave my heart to God.  I repented of my sins and gave my life to Him.  I have been struggling with it for a long time.  Finally, Kent just told me to close my eyes and imagine an elevator going down to my heart.  The doors open...what do I see...I saw nothing.  It was complete darkness.  I had to ask myself had I truly asked God to be my Savior and Lord.  Had there truly been a change in my heart.  The only answer I could give myself was no.  I knew then that I wasn't a child of God's.  I knew there would be no peace in my life until I was.  So, I gave my heart to God.  I meant it and I know that there will be a change in me.  I pray that each of you will keep me accountable to that.  I know that I am not perfect and I will sin, but this time I can ask Christ to forgive me of those sins.  And know that I was forgiven.  They are not just words anymore.  If anyone has any questions for me just email me and I will do my best to answer them.  Thanks for listening!

I totally forgot

I totally forgot to upate yall on my friend and her premature baby.  Well, as of a few days ago everything is going just fine.  She had a little girl who they name Caroline Olivia.  They are calling her Carlie.  Carlie should be home by now.  She had a problem where a part of her brain hadn't developed yet (it will develope) that when she got real relaxed she would just stop breathing.  So, now all that is gone I believe.  I'm so happy that she is OK.  God still answers prayers and He still is in the miracle business!  Anyway, I am off to bed now.  I'll talk with yall later!!!

Here are my pictures

I got done scanning faster than I thought I would!  I hope yall enjoy the pictures. Click view larger for best viewing!  I'll talk with yall later!

Average Joe

Today has been a pretty good day.  I cleaned up the house a bit and just messed around in the house.  I watched Average Joe on NBC.  It really is a good show.  I wish she would have kicked Zack off and kept Dennis.  He (Dennis) seemed to be such a nice guy.  And Zack acts like a jerk.  But towards the end of the show Zack started acting a bit better.  I don't know if it was just for show or what.  There is supposed to be a twist on next week's show.  I can't wait.  Tonight is the last shift Kent has to work for the next two nights.  I am so glad he gets two days off.  I enjoy having him all day long!  I'm going to scan some pictures that I got developed later on tonight and I'll post them for yall.  It will give me something to do later on tonight!  I'll see yall then!!

Nothing really

Well, today was a very uneventful day.  I got up this morning after only having 3 1/2 to 4 hours of sleep.  I tried my little heart out to go to sleep, but never could.  Anyways, I got up and got dressed to go to church.  I went to Eastaboga.  It was pretty good.  They just moved into a new building and it is really nice.  After church I came home and got into some comfortable clothes and headed to Granny's to eat lunch.  Like always, it was good.  I came home and snuggled up to my hubby and took a nap.  Then I got up and warmed up some plates from Granny's.  I then sat down and watched some TV.  Now, I have nothing to do so I am just going to lay around and chill.  I'll talk with yall later!

And the waiting begins

OK.  The waiting begins...as we see if this month is the month we are pregnant.  I have about 2 weeks before I will even think about testing.  We'll just have to wait and see.  And I am not one who is made of patience.  I'll keep yall updated as much as possible. 

I had a somewhat busy day.  I went to Wal-Mart, Winn-Dixie, and Food World.  I had to buy some groceries that will hopefully get us through the next two weeks.  I also bought some cleaning supplies.  My marathon of cleaning will be beginning soon.  Nov. 23rd-27th.  It will be a blast...umm yeah sure.  Anywho, and after all that I went to the ATM.  I came home ate supper and watched a movie with the hubby.  Now I sit here trying to get sleepy so I can go to bed.  I guess that is all.  I'll talk with yall later!!!!!!!!!  Byeeeeeeeeeee!

Hahahaha!!!!

OK.  This was just too funny not to share!!!  LOL!  Let's see how long it takes him to realize it's here.  That will teach him to read my journal more often!  Hehehe....hohoho....hahaha.......

I think Kent was like 13 or 14 in this picture.  I think.  Not too sure.  But man, even back then I thought he was "dreamy".  I still do.....most of the time.  Hehehee!!!!

Is it Friday already!!?!??!

Well, its Friday.  My cleaning day.  Woohoo!!!  I'm just waiting on Kent to go to work and then I am gonna clean a bit.  Nothing major.  That is the week of Thanksgiving.  Kent's grandmother (Granny) always has this huge family gathering for Thanksgiving (The Owens family) and then Christmas (The Cook family).  Well anyways, she has been cleaning since November 1st and she ain't gonna stop until its Thanksgiving.  She does it all.  Windows, walls, carpets, floors, everything.  So I figured I would do the same.  But only for a week.  I don't think I could handle it for a whole month.  Sometimes some of the people from the family like to come to our house and see what we've "done to the place" i.e. they are nosey.  That's ok though...I'm nosey too....  But anyways, I want the house spotless...well as much as possible.  I am also having a jewelry party Nov. 18, but I've done told yall about that.  I'll clean a bit that day, but nothing special.  Oh well.  Nothing new happened today...here's the break down of my day....I got up at 12 went to the parent's house and cleaned.  I then went to Kent's parent's house and picked up Kerith and took her to the bead store to pick out some charms.  I brought her back and then went to the bank to see my moma and give her my Finding Nemo DVD.  I got some stamps while I was there.  The I went to the post office and mailed all my jewelry party invites.  Then I came home.  That's about it.  Nothing exciting huh?  Oh well.  Maybe tomorrow.  Auburn plays Ole Miss.  Auburn is probably going to lose, but I've still got my fingers crossed for them!!!  Well, that's all for tonight...well maybe.  Depends on how late I stay up..hehee.  Byeeeee!

Yoga

Yes, this is like the third entry in the past 24 hours.  But that's OK cause you know you love reading this stuff.  OK.  So I got some Yoga DVDs cause I have heard so many good things about Yoga.  Well, I just got through doing 2 of them.  They were OK.  I mean a lot of the positions were a little hard for me since I have never done it before.  And there were some I couldn't do at all.  Which was a little disheartening.  But then there we some that I really could tell I was doing right and it felt good.  Then there we some that relaxed me and just made me sleepy.  I'll have to use those when I got to bed.  Anywhoo, we'll see how it goes as I continue to try and get the hang of it all. 

My stomach has been hurting me pretty much all night.  I have no idea why.  All the foods I ate should have agreed with me.  I think a lot of it has to do with it getting closer and closer to the time where I can start worrying about am I pregnant this month or do I have to try all over again next month.  It's not so much worrying if I am or not, more I just want to know so I can do whatever step comes next....know what I mean?  Oh well.

Tomorrow here is what I have to do: Clean my parent's house.  Go to the bead store to pick up some charms and beads.  Come home, find something to cook.  Cook it and then relax.  Maybe, I can fit somemore Yoga in there somewhere.  We'll see.  Anyways, I guess this is all for tonight....well its really today(2:44am).  But you know what I mean!  Byeeeee!

Friends

Hi again.  I'm in the process of cooking and thought I would write again.  Kent and I went to Wal-Mart and turned in my film to be developed.  I'm hoping to have the pictures back by about Sunday or Monday so yall will get to see some more pics of us.  We also bought some stain to stain the shelves with for my craft room.  Kent is in there now staining them. 

Tonight Friends comes on.  I am so excited.  I think these pics are from tonight's episode.  I think.  Anyway...enjoy!  I'll talk with yall later!!!

My mail lady needs to be fired!

OK.  Today I was sitting in my living room with the front door wide open...rememeber my door was WIDE OPEN!  OK.  So the mail lady drives by and puts the mail in the mailbox and drives off.  Well, Kent goes and gets the mail and comes back in.  He hands me the mail and I look down and see this little slip that says you have a package but you since you weren't home it will be waiting for you at the Post Office.  WHAT?  I'm not at home?  Really?  Cause I just saw YOU drive by MY HOUSE, thus that means I am at HOME.  I was so mad cause I have been waiting on that package for like a week.  So, Kent calls his Granny to ask her to ask his grandfather to pick the package up for us since he works at the Post Office.  I still just couldn't believe she just drove right by.  I mean we were home.  Both cars where in the drive way and everything.  I was just so shocked.  Oh well.  Hopefully, I will get my package this evening something.  I need to go and dry to hair and get dressed to go to Wal-Mart.  I have to go take my film to be developed.  I'll talk with yall later!

Must sleep....

Well, today was a busy day again.  We went to Griffin's and got Granny a bday gift.  It was so pretty!!!  Anywho, we then went and helped rip apart a house that will eventually be torn down and replaced with a trailer by me and the hubby.  Anyways, after that we came home and took showers and went to Anniston.  We went to Sticks and Stuff and Haverty's to look at living room furniture.  We found a few things we liked, but haven't decided just yet what we are going to do.  We then went to Ruby Tuesday's and got something to eat and brought it home.  My daddy then came and delievered my desk to put in my craft room.  I am really excited about it!  After they we watched Smallville which was pretty good.  I then watched the Bachelor.  I only watch the last couple of episodes cause to me those are the only good ones.  Anyways, I am about to fall asleep as I type this.  I've been up since 5:30 this morning.  Hopefully, I will sleep better tonight!!!  I'll talk with yall later!!!

Like whoa

I can't believe I didn't post any yesterday!!!  I guess I was busy.  I didn't go to bed until like 9AM!!!  Kent was at work until 8:30AM and I just couldn't go to sleep!  I cleaned my whole entire house, I removed all the paints drips off the floor from painting, I read some chapters in a book I'm reading, I cooked Kent some pancakes, and I did anything I could think of to make me sleepy.  It never worked!  Oh well.  Yesterday was a pretty busy day.  I got up around 2 in the afternoon and helped Ket put in all the outlets and switches for our new room...well I mostly watched...but still.  I washed some dishes and cleaned out the kitty litter box.  I then cooked supper and it was pretty good.  We went to see Granny and Pops (Kent's grandparents).  We were trying to be sneaky and grab a ring of Granny's so we could size it and buy her another for her Bday.  We were successful!  We went to Wal-Mart to get her a Bday card and looked at their jewelry.  Nothing worth buying there.  We are going to Griffin's today (a town jeweler to is wonderful...expensive though) and see if we can find anything there.  After we went to Wal-Mart we went to my parent's house to see them and I had to pick up some stuff for a jewelry party I am having Nov. 18th!  If you live near by come and join the party!!!!  Anywho, after going to my parent's house we went to Kent's parent's house and talked with them about a few things for a bit.  Then we came home and watched Finding Nemo.  That is such a cute movie.  Too funny!!!!  It had me and Kent cracking up!  Anyway, after that we went to bed.  I woke up this morning about 5:30 and couldn't go back to sleep.  So here I am now...I am fixing to go hop in the shower and then we are off to Griffin's!  I'll hopefully write sometime later.  Byeeeeeee!

Jingle Bells

Well today was a short day.  I got up and just messed around the house a little bit.  I washed clothes and then went to Wal-Mart and Food World.  I ran into SO many people that I graduated high school with.  I was like is this some kind of class reunion!?!?!  I also ran into a family member and an old teacher and some other people that I personally wish I never ran into.  I swear everyone was at Wally!  Anyway, I think in a few mins. I am going to go and try and clean up some paint that was dripped on the floor.  That will be a ton of fun..woohoo.  Then I may clean my walls.  Yes, you read right...I am going to clean my walls.  They get dusty after a while.  So...my night is full of fun.  I don't know if I will be able to handle it....I'll manage.

A few mins. ago I was folding clothes and this commerical came on and it had Christmas music on it and it was like this burst of Christmas spirit just came over me.  I was like whoa is Christmas here yet!?!!?!  I wish.  I love Christmas.  I can't wait until it comes.  I am hoping for a Christmas present from God this year.  You know what I mean???  A BABY!  We'll see.  If not then I know in due time I'll get my little present!!!  Well, I gotta go and do all the fun things I have planned for myself!  Later Gator!

Misson Completed...well almost

OK.  That extra bedroom/craft room is done.  All I have to do is clean it up and it is done.  Well, Kent also has to put new covers over the outlets.  But besides that its done.  I can't wait to get all my crafty stuff in there!

Well, I guess I am off to clean in a bit.  I'll talk with yall later!

Is anyone Christmas shopping yet???

I've started Christmas shopping WAY earlier than I ever have before.  I have gotten 3 people their gifts so far.  I am way excited.  I've found some great deals and jumped on them.  A few of the places I have shopped are OldNavy.com (go to the bargain section), Goody's (they were having a 50% off sale plus an additional 25% off sale), and finally I found this great online place.  I saw it advertised on TV, its called Overstocked.com.  I found a great gift there!  Yall really need to check it out and explore for gifts for any holiday. 

Nothing new today.  We continued to work on my new craft room.  We didn't get that much done cause Kent's stomach was hurting him.  Poor thing. 

WARNING: Writer about to get real cheesey...warning.....   I love my husband.  He is sooo sweet.  Although there are times I would love to ring his neck, for the most part he is the best!  When I need to talk, he listens.  He is always wanting the best for me.  He tells me how beautiful I am, when at the time I think I look the worse!  He writes me the sweetest letters.  And was there for me to cry on in the first days of our loss when I needed him the most.  He even took a couple days off from work so that he could take care of me.  And then we took a get-away vacation to Florida for a few days to relax after all we'd been through.  He got the best room for us and only the finest things for us those days.  He pampered me like crazy.  He gives me full body massages..WITHOUT me asking!!!!  He is just the best.  Sorry for all of that, but I just wanted to brag on my hubby for a bit!

Well, I'm off.  I'll talk with yall later!

I'm sad...

I'm sad.  I am on a pregnancy board called, "Maybe this Month", well one of the ladies had already gotten pregnant and she just hangs around and talks with us and just lets us know what is going on in her journey and stuff like that.  Well, I looked down and to see how far along she was and she is due March 2, 2004.  It hit me...I was due Feb 27, 2004 and by this time I would know the sex of the baby.  I would feel it kicking me and moving around.  I would be somewhat big by now and the world would know I was preggo just by looking at me.  It's so sad.  I know that I am TTC now and that one day I will have another chance for a baby, but it's hard not to be selfish and want the one I lost.  It stinks having to start all over again.  But one thing I do know is this...once that baby comes I will be glad for all I went through, because when I look into that baby's eyes and he/she looks back at me it will be soooo worth this.  It's just getting there that really is hard.  And watching people around me who got preggo the same time I did to be having all these new experiences.  I'll cope with it all...I just needed to get it off my chest...whew...I feel a little bit better.

HAPPY NOVEMBER!!!!

I can't believe that it is already November!  It seems like yesterday it was Summer!  Time really does fly the older you get!  Anyways, I am so excited that it is November.  The weather, hopefully, will get cooler and then Thanksgiving!!!!!  I LOVE Thanksgiving for many reasons.  Kent and I started a tradition that the day before Thanksgiving we eat "snacks" for supper.  Like those tiny wennies and that cheese stuff...I've forgotten the name of it...anyways we started doing that.  Then on Thanksgiving we get up and watch the Macy's Thanksgiving parade while we get dressed and ready to go to Granny's for the "Owens family" Thanksgiving lunch that then turns into supper.  It's a great time.  I don't know if we will be able to do the next thing this year or not cause Kent's work schedule may interfer...we'll see.  Anyways, you know how Wal-Mart closes for Thanksgiving well they reopen at midnight.  We used to go and wait for them to open and we would go in and do a little shopping for stocking stuffers and stuff.  Like I said, I don't know if we'll get to do that or not this year.  Maybe!

I have been cleaning since Kent left for work.  I've been cleaning out drawers and cleaing all the door fronts of the cabinets and stuff like that.  Once I get through with this entry I'll probably go and continue to clean until I get tired enough to go to bed.  BTW, my craft room is almost done.  Just a few more things and then clean up and then I'll be in there!  I am so excited.  Well, I'm off.  I'll talk with yall later!  GOBBLE GOBBLE!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

I totally meant to at 12:01am......since I am up......to say Happy Halloween.  not that it's some big Holiday like Christmas or Thanksgiving, but it is one holiday closer to those.  And wow...October flew by.  Well, on to the next holiday! 

And for those of you who are saying....man its 3:40 in the morning why is't she asleep!?!?!?  Well, for many reasons, but the most important is because I am a big fat chicken!  Actually, I am not as bad as I used to be, but I still haven't conquered my fear of being alone.  Someday perhaps....just not today.  I'll be in the bed in about an hour or so....oh well.  And for my daddy who I know is reading this...hush!  Cause I know you are shaking your head cause I am still up!  It's ok though, cause I got alot done.  I made more bracelets and I wrote 3 count them 3 entries in my journal!  I could be doing a lot worse!

TRICK OR TREAT!

Five years from now...

Five years from now....where do I see myself?  What will I be?  Where will I be?  I have many questions of where my life will be in 5 years.  Here are some of my goals that I wouldn't mind achieving by then.  I would like to be in a different home.  Hopefully one with 3 or more bedrooms and 2 baths.  I hope to have atleast one child if not two.  I hope that I have taken some classes in photography and have been doing some odd little photography jobs.  I hope that my "bracelet" business has expanded into something really great.  Maybe a bead store or maybe a custom jewlery shop, where I can custom make bracelets or necklaces or whatever.  I hope that Kent has moved up into his career, hopefully where he has an office job and some normal hours.  So far, these are all my goals.  It will be interesting to see what happens!

If I had ten million dollars....

Nothing new happened to me today.  Just spent some time with the hubby and finished up the painting in the etrxa bedroom.  Nothing special.

I was thinking....what would I do if I had ten million dollars.  First of all I would give atleast 10% to God cause that's what you are supposed to do.  I would buy my parents a plot of land wherever they wanted and then give them 500,000 to build a house, decorate, etc. and then I would pay off all their debt and buy my daddy a TRUCK and my moma a PT crusier.  I would then do the same for Kent's parents and buy them whatever cars they wanted.  I would then buy me and Kent a house and new cars.  I would put about a million in savings for my kid's college tutions in the future.  I would then put 100,000 dollars for each kid for when they get married....goodness knows weddings cost ALOT!  That way they can have their dream wedding without worring about all the money details.  Then I would give 500,000 dollars to the American Cancer Foundation.  500,000 dollars to the American Heart Foundation.  Cause both illnesses took away friends and family of mine.  I would give money to the United Way, the Good Will, and other organizations that help out the homeless.  If Ihad any left I would take a year of traveling the world for the hubby and me....goodness knows after having kids we'll need it!  LOL jk.  After that I would just enjoy the rest of the money if any by shopping and just enjoying life without having to worry about money.  A girl can dream can't she?!?!?!?

Painting my life away...

Today was a busy day.  Kent and I (and my daddy) painted our extra bedroom and are almost finish with it.  We just have to put the bead board around the bottom portion of it.  I am getting so excited.  This time Friday I should be in there with all my crafty things.  I am really looking forward to it. 

Besides painting Kent and I watch the Matrix...well Kent did...I slept.  I took a sleeping pill LAST night and it still hasn't worn off!  I got up one time during the night and I swear I felt like I was in a fog.  I barely remember getting back into bed.  But I got some gooooood sleep! 

I think next week will be when I have the big "O".  I hope anyways.  If my body is back in order.  I hope it is.  I am getting excited, but I am trying not to get my hopes up.  Cause the last time Kent and I were trying it took us almost a year.  We'll see...they say you are more fertile once you have miscarriaged and had a D&C.  I've got my fingers crossed!

My friend had her baby yesterday...the baby was 6 weeks premature.  Last night the baby's heart rate dropped to 50.  They say she isn't doing so well.  Please pray for her and the parents.  I couldn't imagine having to go through something like that.  I'll try and keep yall updated!

Well, I guess that is all!  I'll talk with yall later!!!

I've got bracelets....and earrings!

I've got some pictures of some of my bracelets and earrings.  I hope yall like them.  If you want one just email me and tell me and I will mail it to you.  Please tell others about them too.  I sell them to have a little extra cash for Christmas!  Enjoy!

Am I a loser or what?!?!?!

OK.  Am I a total loser or what?  Last night when I was sooo bored cause Kent was at work...I was looking around the internet trying to get ideas for Christmas gifts.  Well, I always go to OldNavy.com and look and see what they have in their bargain section.  Well, I was looking around and I look up and see "Maternity".  I was like ummm I wonder what they have.  So, I looked around there.  I found myself saying, "I could be wearing that right now.  Or maybe if I can get preggo right now, right this very second I could wear that one."  Umm, sad really when you think about it.  But oh well...I can dream can't I?

Kent is still sleeping....he had to work midnight til 8.  He told me to wake him up at 2:30pm which is in a few minutes.  It's hard enough to wake him up at 4:00pm.  So we'll see how this one goes!  I'm cooking his favorite dinner tonight.  It's chicken and some weird type of noodles with cream of chicken poured over it.  It's pretty good!  If I do say so myself...

I made a ton of bracelets last night.  I think I made 14 bracelets and 6 pair of earrings!  I was so excited.  They came out so good!  I know I said I would get yall some pictures.  And I will!  I'll have to get my dad's digital camera and take some shots!  Hopefully in a few days I'll have some up here!  Well, I guess that is all....I'm off to wake the hubby up...woohoo!  I'll talk with yall later!

Woohoo!

I did soooo much today.  I got up and washed clothes, straightened my house up, primed all the trim in the extra bedroom, cooked supper, and took a shower.  I went to Wally World and then came home and sorted out my beads and got most of them all organized.  I am going to make some bracelets in a little bit once I get off this thing. 

I am sooo ready to get preggo.  And I know that yall will get tired of me talking about it, but oh well cause it's something that is important to me and I am going to talk about it....A LOT.  Anyway, I am ready to be preggo.  I can't wait to have a little baby in the house.  With all the baby noises....screams....lol....it will be worth it though.  I can't wait to feel the first kick or the first wiggle in my tummy.  I won't take for granted those things during pregnancy.  I know that there will be times that I'll complain cause I am uncomfortable or whatever but for the most part I hope that I enjoy the time cause I know now that it can all end and end so quickly and unexpectantly.  I can't wait to write in here...I AM PREGNANT!!!!  Until then.....just talk. 

Kent is off tomorrow and Wednesday!  YAY YAY!!!!  We get to spend some quality time together and we also get to finish that extra bedroom!  I'm looking forward to it! 

The weather here has gotten a lot cooler!  It was like in the 60s today.  Sooo nice.  It felt like fall should feel.  Only thing is I think it's suppose to warm up in the next couple of days.  Hopefully it won't warm up too much.  Halloween is just better when it is cooler...especially if you have a hot, heavy costume.  I'm not dressing up or anything...I haven't done that since I was like in the 5th grade!  But I am handing out candy.  Come by and get some!  I'll be here!  =)  Well, I guess I'll talk with yall later!

I've got feelings......

Isn't that a song?  Anyway, I have been having soooo many feelings lately.  And honestly, I don't know what the feelings really are or what they mean.  I have been overwhelmed with feelings.  From wanting a baby now to not wanting one cause I am afraid my body will reject it or that things just won't turn out like they are supposed to.  I have feelings of where my whole life is right now.  It's crazy sounding I know, but its just the way I am feelig right now.  I know the only person that understands one word I am saying is me...and eventually I'll get everything straight, but until then I will just have to stuggle with this and hopefully have everything worked out soon.  I need to take a sleeping pill and just crash for the night.  Maybe I'll do that later on...we'll see....or I may be back in a couple of hours writing about something else...who knows.  Keep checking for updates!  Later gators!

Breastfeeding...

BREASTFEEDING???  You may ask...don't you have to have a baby to do that?  Well duh!!  But I was thinking into the future.  I have always planned to breastfeed my child.  The question for me was always how long.  Would I do it for 6 months, or a year, or two years?  Or would I do it until the baby got on solid foods.  My question probably will not be answered until I have a baby to  "latch on" and start the natural process.  But still it's good to do research on the topic and get ideas on what to do and how its done and so forth.  There are a lot of benefits to breastfeeding.  Some I've never heard of.  But I was reading another woman's journal and she has on there 101 reasons to breastfeed your child.  I'll have to get the link on my favorite websites.  It's very informative.  It's a lot of reading but still you have ever thought about breastfeeding your children its a must read!  I don't know what brought me to write about all this...just thought I would.  Have a good night....umm...day...umm whatever it is when you read this!  And enjoy that extra hour of sleep.....night all!

Just because....

Today so far has been an uneventful day.  I say so far...it's already 9:00pm here.  So I guess my day is pretty much over.  And I've done nothing.  I made breakfast for Kent before he had to go to work.  I cooked biscuits, sausage, and eggs.  It was pretty good.  I wasn't all that hungry, but it was good.  I am now at my parent's house watching the Auburn football game, which to this point is not the greatest game in the world.  We are getting our butts kicked!  Oh well.

I think later on this weekend or sometime this coming up week I am going to finish priming our extra bedroom and get it ready to be painted.  I'll be glad when that room gets done for many reasons.  One reason is, we started back when I was preggo in August.  And it sits the same as it was then.  Reason number two is because once its done, I can make into a craft room...atleast until we are preggo again.  Until that happens I can work with my beading in there instead of on the living room floor!

I am so ready to be pregnant again.  I am really hoping it happens soon.  It's been a little over two months since we miscarriaged and the doctors have said that we can start trying again.  I hope this next pregnancy is a healthy one.  Even though I am ready for another chance, I am also really scared.  Scared that my body will reject it or that the baby just won't develope correctly.  I can only hope and pray for a healthy baby next go around.  I'll keep yall updated.

Well, it's time for me to go and finish watching this Auburn game...woohoo.  I'll talk with yall later!

Spring cleaning in October?

Well....today had been a good day.  I mean everyday is a good day cause I have my health and I have people that love me.  I'm not starving or naked.  But today is a day that I really felt needed.  I cleaned my parent's house cause they are having company over tonight and they wanted it to look real nice.  So I stayed there almost two hours just cleaning and making everything look real nice.  I then came home and did the same thing to my house.  It was already clean but I wanted it "Spring cleaned".  So I vac. my carpets and mops all the floors (wood floors throughout the whole house), the bathroom is spotless, the kitchen is clean and looking nice.  The only thing I didn't do was dust.  But that won't take me too long to do someother time.  I then hopped in the shower to "clean" myself.  I am now sitting here just enjoying the beautiful day that God has given me and reading emails and journals.  I am fixing to go dry my hair and get dressed to go to my parent's to eat.  Kent and I are part of the company that is go to my parent's tonight!  Well, I hope everyone has a great Friday and a great weekend!  I'll talk with yall later!

Good day

OK.  Today was a pretty good day.  It was busy but good.  I cooked pancakes...and this time I came out of it happy.  I did a good job...I think.  After breakfast I went to my parent's house and tanned.  I enjoy tanning.  I don't know why, but I just feel better when I have a bit of color to my skin.  Anyways, I came home and took a shower and got dressed to go to town.  I went to Pell City and got some beads.  I needed them cause I have an order to fill by next week.  Well, after bead shopping I came back home.  I picked up the flowers I bought for my friend who had surgery and went to her house to give them to her.  She is still feeling a bit down and all but she will recover nicely.  I then came home and cooked supper for the hubby and we ate it.  It was good.  We then watched Friends which was good.  And then Kent and I played YATHZEE(sp?).  He won one game and I won the other.  It was fun.  Now, I am on this thing and I am fixing to get off and spend some time with the hubby.  I'll talk with yall later!

I'm too proud

Well....today was a really good day.  I got up and exercised...yay...that took an act of congress in and off itself!  Then I went to Food World and got some...umm food.  I was proud cause I actually used coupons...I never did it before...thought it was a waste of time...but I saved $7 so what the hey!  Well, after that I came home and started supper.  IT WAS GOOD!  But before eating I got a call from some STRANGER well not really a stranger but someone I really wouldn't talk to on any given day.  Anyway, they ordered 6 bracelets and 2 pair of earrings.  I was way too excited.  Well, after that I went to my parent's house to tan.  I put some of this tanning stuff on and I got burnt!  Well, atleast I am brown now...it's all good.  Well, I came home and watched Smallville with my hubby...which is always nice.  Then took a shower and I then went to Wally World.  I went to get my grandmother a b-day gift.  Then to Winn-Dixie.  I got some flowers for a friend who had surgery today.  Those are some NICE NICE flowers!  Now, I am home.  That's my day!  I'll talk with yall later!